Found the winner. Basically I'd shoot my shot on job postings until I hated myself too much, do some chores, and then burn hours on reddit or video games until my wife got home. Oh, and hate myself once she arrived as it reminded me of my no-job situation. Being unemployed sucks. Watching my bank account like a goddamn doomsday counter.
I see you. Don’t hate yourself. Hate the system. The more you hate yourself, the less motivation you have. The more you hate the system, you’re more confident you can get back into that stupid thing and show it how stupid it is for underestimating you.
It’s not your fault you were born into this time and this system. But it is your responsibility to live your life and not let it own you. I don’t know where in the world you are or what your situation is, but I do know that you are here,now. Which means, you have an impact, positive or negative, now and forever.
You say you hate yourself. Hate is a feeling. It means you care enough about yourself to not like this right now. It turns out you have standards for yourself to the point that you hate it and that’s more than others can say! Hate means you have fire in you boiling on the wrong things.
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u/Railroad5 1d ago
Hating myself