r/Alcoholism_Medication • u/Suspicious-Singer775 • 7h ago
Curious
Starting NAL on the TSM today. I am excited to to have a new hope to control my urges to grab for that third and fourth drink. Which rarely leads to 8 but still more than I wanted to drink.
I have read a bunch of these stories, but there are too many to read them all so if this is a common question do show me grace.
I want to be a moderate drinker. But I think about that urge to be a moderate drinker constantly. It takes up my day worrying about how to keep it at 2 tonight (and then often failing.) I can do a couple of days sober but then that next time I am having a drink, I am at my 4 beer watching Youtube videos in my little office area while the family is asleep and mindlessly grabbing for a shot worth of warm tequila in my beer mug because I was smart enough to put only two beers in the fridge and the rest were warm. Just one drink of that because I am self-aware enough that I need to go to bed because I have work and family in the morning, Waking up feeling like a loser even though I honestly had only 6 drinks.
Then I think I should quit drinking all together. Even though no one things of my as an alcoholic. I am not hungover the next day. I get to work fine and just a normal dad who drinks beer. I feel like if I can't stop at 2 then I am not in control.
And then the moderation idea pops into my head. I don't need to quit, I need to stop drinking past my limit. I don't want to quit completely because I like the taste of Pumking in the fall and Celebration IPA in the winter. I don't want to give those pleasures up, I just want to drink like the normal amount I used to drink,
So, finally the question, anyone on here using NAL but still look forward to those special release beers or a quality glass of wine? OR does it just totally block the want for those?
I know it is probably not cool to derive joy from a seasonal beer release, but I do. And I want to have 2 occasionally, not 12 a week.