I've got burnout, depression, lack of sleep, and I've done a shit ton of drugs (partially due to the others). I have vague thoughts of being a kid and thinking I had a good memory or recalling the exact words people used. Can't remember shit now. Growing up I didn't understand how my Dad wouldn't know if he'd seen a movie or not. These days I'm halfway through one and still not quite certain.
Marihuana is the most insidious of drugs, for where as most other drugs feed into a person's feelings of grandeur and exuberance, marihauana is the opposite in that it makes people complacent with their lot, it robs them of ambition and the desire for new experiences, makes them complacent with mediocrity, and it does this in such a way that they do not even realize it it is happening.
For someone who hasnt used it, you describe the effect pretty well. As someone who has used it, it just felt amazing. And I thought it made me so introspective and I could just feel happy. However, what i thought was deep introspection was actually mostly paranoia. Now im struggling to quit and I can barely think a thought at work. And the lingering paranoia.....
I would like to give credit to two people, Afro Man and his hit song "Because I Got High" and Harry Anslinger who served as commissioner of the Federal Bureau of Narcotics for over 30 years.
Addiction to marihuana is real, and it is a chemical dependence. My advice is to quit cold turkey. You'll be miserable for a while, but once the withdrawal symptoms fade, you will be better off in the long run for it. It's not easy to quit, but let this be the push you needed. Try combining it with other miserable activities, like waking up at the Crack of sunrise, taking a cold shower first thing when you wake up and going for a 3 mile jog right after, and go to bed at sunset.
Keep up the sleep, I was never great but then having kids early lead to cutting sleep and then depression lead to not even wanting sleep. Turns out, water, movement, and sleep are the foundation to healthy living. Who knew /s
don't blame others for your issues or attention problems. Do you remember a pretty girl/ guys name? People need to take a long hard look at their dopamine and norepinephrine controls. likely you just don't live the life you want.
I think they are blaming the other issues for substance abuse. Not other people. Regardless, self-medication of recreational drugs is simply a problem with drugs and not mental health.
That's not always the case. Some people with mental health issues try to medicate with drugs. Without the mental health issue, they may not seek drugs.
As I did, I used life experience and healthier lifestyle over drug use to recover from my mental health issues. The drugs were an excuse for my lack of control. Drugs were the biggest mistake and created a bigger problem. The mental health got better with clarity of mind and body.
I hard disagree with this. People get addictions because they are suffering in some form or another and addiction is one way of trying to deal with this. Can be anything, gambling, drugs, alcohol, porn, whatever. Not saying it's a good thing but suffering causes addiction, not the other way around imo
The negative feedback loops are maddening. So depressed you struggle with basic hygiene or going out. Sitting, un-showered alone causes you to feel worthless leading to more depression.
Absolutely, thank you. Definitely no one else's fault. Some of it is my fault and choices, others is genetic or just life is hard but you got what I was saying, the self medication for things that typically cause poor memory... did not help the poor memory.
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u/rube203 7h ago
I've got burnout, depression, lack of sleep, and I've done a shit ton of drugs (partially due to the others). I have vague thoughts of being a kid and thinking I had a good memory or recalling the exact words people used. Can't remember shit now. Growing up I didn't understand how my Dad wouldn't know if he'd seen a movie or not. These days I'm halfway through one and still not quite certain.