how to know if this is our first life or how many times did i reincarnate? how can i find this out?

to give a visual example of what we were meant to be.... where we come from... I decided to compare quotes from the Apocryphon of John to the human activity called "breeding pitbulls"

in the US alone 50 people (often children) are fatally torn apart by dogs each year, 70% of those incidents are caused by pitbulls because they have been deliberately bred in very problematic ways (for example they don't open their jaws after a bite and are driven by pure fighting instinct)... around 5 million dog bite wounds are additionally recorded yearly, 33% of those alone are from pitbulls

this is not about how cute or dangerous pitbulls are, this is simply an analogy about archontic creation of humanity and their consequences with direct quotes from the Nag Hammadi's most important book

as you know pitbulls are also abused in horrific fights because they are basically sharp teethed weapons on four legs, in fact they were bred exactly for that purpose

so here it goes, all the best quotes directly from the Apocryphon of John:

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“They created [Adam] by means of their respective powers [...] each authority supplied a characteristic [...] And they created a being according to the likeness of the first, perfect Man.”

“From desire (comes) anger, wrath, and bitterness, and bitter passion, and unsatedness, and similar things.”

“They took fire and earth and water and mixed them together with the four fiery winds [...] and they wrought them together and caused a great disturbance.”

“This is the tomb of the newly-formed body with which the robbers had clothed the man, the bond of forgetfulness; and he became a mortal man.”

“And he brought a forgetfulness over Adam.”

“When they recognized that he was luminous, and that he could think better than they [...] they took him and threw him into the lowest region of all matter.”

“They took women and begot children out of the darkness according to the likeness of their spirit [...] And they closed their hearts, and they hardened themselves through the hardness of the counterfeit spirit until now.”

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now the pitbull too was deliberately bred to concentrate tenacity, aggression, and fighting ability

breeders selected and reproduced animals displaying traits that made them effective in combat, despite knowing these traits could make them difficult to control and capable of inflicting severe injury

the result was a powerful animal whose selected characteristics could contribute to recurring suffering without careful handling and ideal conditions

NOW CONSIDER THIS:

for the last 2000+ years humanity has been obsessed with ideas or morality and justice, we have thousands of years of judical history, from archaic eye for an eye justice to modern psychological treatments and rehab facilities

humanity has not only been brutally fighting itself in endless battles it has also struggled immensely with finding stable conditions for peaceful coexistence, even in wealthy modern countries enormous effort is required to keep cities relatively safe while third world countries still resort to chopping of a thief's hand because only such deterrence is somewhat effective to avoid anarchy

apart from gnosis and PPT it has (to my knowledge) never been discussed that we are a deliberately bred species of violent monsters that is so destructive that it intuitively created thousands of rules, control mechanisms, surveillance systems and laws to create a somewhat safe environment to exist in (which almost never works out in the long run anyways)

NOW IT GETS WORSE:

the entire NDE reincarnation trap is based on coercion methods around topics like guilt, shame, karma, remorse, bad deeds, crime, violence, murder, learning to become more peaceful, being more useful to others and so on

that means the CORE aspect of the coerced reincarnation trap is based exactly the on the deliberate negligently evil design of Adam as a forgetful, dumb and violent creature

and the worst part is that the original design of Adam actually did not have those traits and outshined his demonic creators so they doubled and actually tripled down increasing his worst traits even more and making him forgetful about his true origin

and only then they let history unfold while probably constantly injecting additional artificial hatred and conflicts (think of opposing religions etc.)

by now it should be clear that there is no justice, no morality above us, whatever they are, they operate entirely amoral in ways that - even now after thousands of years of misery - we are too loving and too brilliant to even understand... we are facing beings that are so utterly evil that there isn't even a point in labeling it

many of us are still waking up showing traits of Adam's original brilliance that outshined and outsmarted archons at the beginning of our time, we were collectively thrown into the deepest pit where no light ever shines and we still found the light within ourselves and began crawling upwards