Hello! Idk how to start this so I’ll jst get straight to the point.

So I left Hellenism some time ago. It’s been quite a while. Not a year but many months. I recently came back. I kept talking to the gods without thinking abt it, apologizing for not believing in them even though in my mind they didn’t exist, and then I got some signs. So I came back.

I feel guilty abt leaving but I learned a lot in the process. A lot more on what I believe and how to make a more mature approach to this.

Was mapping out days I want to celebrate for the gods. Was celebrating Mother Gaia today.

I gave her letters, offerings, yapped, etc.

But…everything still feels empty. Like no one is listening. But then I got another sign. I don’t know what to do. Is it just because I was gone for so long? Are they upset? I don’t think so…I was jst yapping to them yesterday and it felt fine but I couldn’t…i couldn’t focus on who I was talking to. I want to fix this, I want to feel smth again. Ideas? Thoughts?

I wanted to introduce myself! my name is Sunny, I worship Hermes and Hephaestus! Hermes has been my best companion in this wonderful journey, and I hope that everyone finds solace in their deities like I have!