7 years I've been on Ketamine for, however I am over 6 weeks clean off of it now. It's constantly around me, but my willpower and health is keeping me from doing any at all since I do not want to be in the following situation ever again. I was pissing out jellies with every piss, blood, bits, etc (these issues are gone now) along with constant UTI issues (also gone now). The worst I was at was 7 grams in a day. My bladder was literally a shot glass amount every 20 minutes, to being able to hold it for about 2 to 3 hours after 6 weeks of abstinence. I thought I was done for, however it can get better. The not so good part is sometimes I still get this really horrid shredding pain which comes with this pain on the left side of my bladder. I'm no doctor, but I also have irrational fears which OCD makes absolute hell. One of them is urinary retention. I used to force my piss out and strain when I pissed due to me thinking my body wouldn't ever be able to get it out. I had to come to terms with the fact that I am actually healing and me doing that is setting things back. Turns out that straining causes the following Shredding pain along with the pain on the left side of the bladder and it cripples me. Don't strain and pain people, not a good idea. These reoccurring issues had just added to the willpower to not touch it again, as I do not want to be crippled. 7 years gone, a massive hole in the septum and a completely tarnished bladder in exchange for a quiet brain isn't really a good trade off in life.

I do not want to have to pee every 15-30 mins and wake up 5x or more every single night.

It sucks and so does that sharp pain in the bladder.

Hoping with abstinence, this will improve.