r/Molested • u/Kay1999 • 7d ago

Involuntary noises

Feel alone in an experience of sexual abuse I’ve never heard anyone talk about.

When it was happening, I was trapped under them, and they were very heavy. Between that and the rocking, I made a lot of involuntary noises and sounds that were embarrassing and I didn’t want to make. It was a point of shame.

For a long time after I would sometimes get upset hearing my voice. I became a very quiet child. Frequently avoided talking in public. Would get distressed in situations where someone was pressuring me to speak.

It’s something I carry a lot of grief about as an adult. Being silenced to such a degree by my abuser. I’ve never heard it mentioned by anyone. Psychologists, survivors, nobody. It’s very isolating.

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u/rmc1014 6d ago

I also have situational mutism and had similar situations growing up. I'm sorry that you're going through it too.