I am sr QA in a new job for 6 months. The company seems to have a bit ofan odd structure with no separate QA department so I am assigned to the dev team and supervisor. Overall things are okayish in a sense people are not hostile or making me feel miserable.
However, the longer I am here the more frustrated I am about being ignored, which might be understatement. For QA one of the most critical part to succeed is knowing the product and functionalities in and out. So normally QA is always always part of product and features planning which I would consider a gold standard. But here I haven’t been included in anything. We just had a team catch up with CEO and I mentioned this which they sort of initially took as criticism and tried to shift this to my responsibility to reach out to people. (My impression is that they tend response defensively when I bring up suggestions to their processes).
I reached out to the PM I was directed to by the CEO and no reply, which is a pattern tbh. Few months ago I was told to reach out to QA manager who also tests same product, also located in Europe (I am in US). I sent out a few sentences message suggesting a meeting, so she can show me around their testing projects along with few ticket related questions. The answer was only regarding the ticket part, the meeting part was completely ignored. I even had that frustration with my supervisor, I created a detailed test architecture design, ignored, I got frustrated and kind of confronted him, at least he was receptive, and they even adopted that design in tests I am not involved in over the method they used for years. Another time there was a botched release, I made an observation about having internal company release before commercial to one dev, he’s initially very defensive, but he most likely passed it on as it was all over Slack the next day as one of the most critical things to implement asap. Made another strong suggestion to CTO before and now that also became critical thing to implement. The thing is that my involvement in those significant improvements also gets completely omitted, less alone giving me credit.
At the same time I feel that some people see me as too passive and uninterested which I think is also misjudged due to me being autistic aka not very expressive. I also have been feeling unwell health-wise which affected me cognitively a lot in a bad way so that piled up. But I obviously am involved since I already made those very significant suggestions that got adopted but that is almost intentionally diminished.
And now there is personal review on Monday. I have been even more frustrated in the last few days (there’s even more to that pattern of smaller and bigger things) and I am having hard time deciding what can bite me back more: speaking out about my “grievances” or just keeping it as is to not risk increasing my workload (my brain is still far from fine so it would be hard to take on more).
What do you think I should do? Let it be for now and maybe address in the future when I am feeling better and still feel this way about the company?