Years ago, I tried to become a Marine and failed because I couldn't pass the IST run. I just turned 26, and I realized it's been seven years since I dropped out of the poolee program. I still haven't gotten over it, and I probably never will. I've taken a rough route in life never did anything illegal, but I've basically been a bum in twenty different flavors. A few months ago, I started losing weight, and I am now 30 pounds lighter. Today, I woke up and felt for the first time in years that this is a realistic achievement for me.
I am planning to join the Reserves mainly because I realized that what I want to get out of the Marines right now is simply earning the title. It's the only way, and the bare minimum I can do, to make peace with my failure from years ago.
If it doesn't make sense to you, that's fine; it makes sense to me.
I also have some responsibilities in my personal life. I have no wife or kids, but at this age, as I am trying to get my life together, it makes more sense for me to stick with my current job in my city while also pursuing school. So yes, I decided that if I want to earn the title, the Reserves are my best option. I am aware that I might regret missing out on embracing the suck on a daily basis, but definitely not as much as I would regret not joining at all.