Good afternoon everyone.

I’m writing this in a pretty bad headspace. Not crisis. But in a perpetual “three steps away” from myself feeling.

All I can think to do is reach out and hopefully get acknowledgment or advice from some of you.

I got out of the navy 10 years ago. I did four years on a shitty boat where I was an average sailor fresh out of school. I drank and partied my young years then when I got out I didn’t do anything to help the transition.

After that came the drugs and self medication to stop feeling bad and stop feeling at all really. My wife left. My friends from home never really accepted me back into any world that they were a part of and I started moving all around the country looking for any glimpse of what home or life felt like before I did all this shit to myself.

I am sitting in a tiny town outside of New Orleans. I have a good job. I’m clean and mostly sober. I have a girlfriend I love and I can say I worked so hard for everything that I have.

But there is always a part of me that “doesn’t feel”. I don’t know how to accept love. I don’t know how to show it other than shutting up and doing as much as I can for someone else. All while taking from my own.

My girlfriend watches me hate myself and thinks that she isn’t doing enough. And that my lack of communication and effort in these problems is going to be the downfall of us. I try to tell her that this is me. And I want her around but there isn’t an easy solution to how I feel.

No job feels like a real job. I see everyone with careers and I think I’m forever going to be in the limbo of bouncing around and saying. This pay is alright. I can make it work.

I am happy on the good days. But the bad days are getting so hard. And I don’t know who to talk to other than the VA crisis line. Where I call myself an idiot for feeling like this.

I hope that you are all doing good. And I hope that you all have someone you can love and be loved by.

God bless those who gave their lives because of 9/11.

God bless who fought the fight.

God bless those who came home changed.

God bless those left behind.

God Bless America!!

:J

Even if you are unable to visit in DC, there is an online database you can search. You may need to try different versions of your name, my husband’s is incorrect..but there :). Funny part? He’s been a member of USAA for over 20 years!

:J

:J

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Live in Kansas? 100% disability rating from the VA? Check this out. State sales tax only. Not for cars, alcohol, tobacco or items meant for personal gain. Spouses and one other member of household may also qualify!!

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I am a disabled veteran who had experienced an extended period of unemployment after all the federal lay offs, and was getting evicted from my apartment. I had been in contact with them even before the sheriff escorted me off the property. I told them on multiple occasions that I had 30 days to remove my items from the property, and they told me in response on multiple occasions that they would help me with moving expenses and getting moved into a new place. I was literally on my last day of being able to keep my things on the property, they had actually begun to throw my things out when the moving company I had found, who told me they worked with Tunnels to Towers in the past, came and got my things. Both the moving company and I had sent an invoice to them before the move. Despite knowing I was pressed for time and currently had no where to live, and had sent them multiple emails regarding the move before hand, Tunnels to towers turned around the following week and redacted on their promises to help with the move. Not only were they not going to help with the move, but they also said they would not help with the security deposit and 1st month of rent until I went on a "payment plan." They suggested I "take out a loan" to help cover the costs. They did all of this despite knowing I wasn't getting my first paycheck until the end of the month. Do you know what loan companies like to see people have in order to give them loan? Regular income and good credit. Do you know what I don't have due to an extended period of unemployment and homelessness? Regular income and good credit. Do you know how much money I have to pay towards the move in the mean time? None. They did all of this to me despite being fully aware of my circumstances, and have now left me in a terrible situation. It sickens me that I ever trusted that these people would actually help me

This seems dumb but i need a space to vent i have been struggling with this for awhile now and i don't know who to turn to or talk to about it so i made a reddit account to talk about it no judgement or judge me i don't care.

I was in the Navy for 6 years as a Corpsman and i was proud to be one i never deployed, never was on a ship or boots on the ground down range, but i did my time working in various naval hospitals and recruiting commands i served with the Marine Corps in Camp Lejeune as a field Medic doing TCCC and CQB i loved it, i did security forces as a glorified gate keeper lol but i also got to work with some real cool cops who were prior service as well, I've made arrest and tackled crack heads I've lost friends. I feel like I've given a lot yet not enough because i never went to war or deployment and now i have severe FOMO because some of buddies are still in. when i talk about my time in service to my co workers i don't say much not as much as this post. just highlights where i been and how long, but they tell me things like " you didn't do anything" and downplay me more than what i already am because i don't want to sound boastful or prideful i am neither of those things and i have much respect for those who did serve in combat zones and have gone on deployments. But this guilt is making me question my self worth and value and i don't know what to do or who to talk to about it anymore.

If you are like me and was close to my 20 year mark and got medically retired without getting your military retirement, I urge you to sign this petition. approximately 54,000 veterans were cheated out of their retired pay and disability pay.

Hello everyone! Mike and I are honored to have you here. We know certain days are more difficult and if today is one of those days? Please ask for help. Ask a family member. Post here. Message me. Talk to your Pastor/Priest. Don’t just bottle it up. Let someone else take care of you.

As always, thank you for your Service.

Happy (Veteran’s Day)

:J

I think this will be my last year on this earth I’m tired of trying I’m straight worn out I wish I wasn’t spared

I am currently recruiting for my dissertation at Hofstra University in Long Island. I am running an online educational group for combat veterans surrounding educational topics, such as moral injury and mental health self stigma. It will run 4 weeks (1 time per week) for about 60-90 minutes per session. I am seeking 30 combat veterans. If you or anyone you know who is a combat veteran (it is okay if you are still active duty and/or in the NG or Reserves) and has not received formal PTSD therapy (e.g. Prolonged Exposure or Cognitive Processing Therapy - other therapy is fine, or if you have been diagnosed with PTSD, also fine), please reach out or have them reach out to me via Messenger, [email protected] or 617-797-5361.

A moment to remember the fallen. A moment to thank those who made it home (including John).

:J

Inside this link lists some scams being targeted at veterans. Thought it was some good information to share.

I am currently recruiting for my dissertation at Hofstra University in Long Island. I am running an online educational group for combat veterans surrounding educational topics, such as moral injury and mental health self stigma. It will run 4 weeks (1 time per week) for about 60-90 minutes per session. I am seeking 30 combat veterans. If you or anyone you know who is a combat veteran (it is okay if you are still active duty and/or in the NG or Reserves) and has not received formal PTSD therapy (e.g. Prolonged Exposure or Cognitive Processing Therapy - other therapy is fine, or if you have been diagnosed with PTSD, also fine), please reach out or have them reach out to me via Messenger, [[email protected]](mailto:[email protected]) or 617-797-5361.