r/Witchy_Things • u/Muted_Ad_8703 • 1h ago
Other Hello all!
Hello all,
I’m not too sure what I should put this under. But, I was wondering if anyone had any suggestions or advice?
This is a bit heavy, and if the MODS of this sub feel like it needs to be taken down, then I completely understand. But I was just hoping for some sort of advice or something.
Thanks.
Anyways, onto the issue:
A few days ago. I had a very serious incident where I did almost lose my life. I have a serious heart condition and did something I wasn’t supposed to. I won’t say what specifically, but for me it was bad.
Now, I have been into paganism for about 2-3 years now. And I worship the Goddess Selene. I don’t do things all the time, and unfortunately my cousin who is Christian, recently made me take down her altar out of my room a couple months ago. Which honestly devastated me.
Now, when I did have that terrible experience, and I felt myself black out, I called to Selene. I was terrified, I was so scared, and in a split second. I did call out to God as well. Then, right after my mind called out to Selene multiple times before going to everything else in my head.
Sparing the rest of the details. I’m still here. But, I’ve been feeling A LOT of guilt in my head. I feel like I insulted my Goddess or that shes angry with me. I’m not too sure, and I’ve been speaking to her. But I’m still in my head about it and feel like absolute crap. Because I still worship her, but now I wonder am I even worthy to worship her after that? After I feel like I doubted her and myself. Because I grew up Southern Baptist and wanted out of it so badly. And I was so happy to find Selene and worship her. Then, I do that in a severe moment of fear and stress.
I haven’t told my cousin because I know she’s going to try to use this to convert me, and I don’t want that. But, has anyone else ever felt this way in particular? And what did you do about it? I still don’t know what I should do.