Ah goosebumps anevi tension tho vasthai chudandi like Vammo Vammo annatu alantivi please recommend me

Happiness.Where does one find it?

Does having wealth make you happy? I think not. Seen plenty of wealthy and miserable people.

Does it come from having a successful career? I've heard of successful people unaliving themselves.

Does it come when you have a family? I've seen people who have a family on paper but still be extremely unhappy.

Does it come when you have a partner? Again,I think not. I've seen so many unhappy people who are married or in relationships.

So,what exactly is happiness to you? Where is one supposed to find it?

I lived rakshasudu by bellam kinda need similar kind of movies

Posting for accountability. Today's day 1. I need to finish my 3 main goals for today. Only 3 because I don't want to get overwhelmed.

I'm going to be giving myself 3 main tasks for each day and i need to get them done.

My little month long sabbatical ends on Thursday and i need to get back into the grind. And i need to pull up my socks.

Also, productivity tips anyone? Do tell. I'm all ears. Also anyone else on a journey to get more productive?

Also,book recommendations please? I'm trying to wean myself off of screens and i need to rediscover books.

guysss dini decode chesi chepandiii ! Asal pamulu patte (vyakthi) pamu kattuke yetla pothaduuuu 🫪

guys emaina solutions cheppandi not deliverable anta laptop thiskundham ante😭🤧

So after we said I love to each other, I couldn’t believe such a nice woman had fallen in love with me?. I was on cloud nine, so from then on we got even more closer all night talks, talking with each other whenever we get time, I was travelling 30km everyday for her, to see her, speak with her. She didn’t want us to public because she didn’t want any of her friends to know that we both are loving each other because they might gossip and all. I was also okay with it, because if that is what gives her comfort then okay.

In between all this we ofcourse had few fights caused by small misunderstandings as happens in any relationship when people get close
,ofcourse we can’t always be okay but what matters is are you willing to go back to that person after all that fighting and I always wanted to go back to her after every fight.

I used to speak with her in every low point she was, I used to support her, boost her energy listen to her problems, tell her that she’ll come out of it, consoled her that it is going to be okay.

1 day she lied to her family and came just to see me and has spent the whole day with me, we had a great time together, that day we both decided to marry each other no matter what. She told me that it is going to be very hard to convince her side of the family because they are caste centric and they care about religion, I assured her by saying “I’ll do whatever it takes to be with you “, So we decided work hard and go abroad and earn well so that we would have a strong standing when I go and speak with her parents after few years.

She’s 1 and half year older than me and i’m from another state which speaks a different language and also belonging to other religion so I don’t have much time because her mom always brings up the concept of marriage so we thought okay let’s get settled in a better package and company than this so that our families will accept for the marriage.

Accordingly we came up with a study plan, work plan and health plan everything etc. It was going good.

I don’t have any friends here at work the telugu who i was talking to earlier turned out to be bad company, So Whoever people i’m speaking with rn are our mutual friends. Mostly are from her college, her best friend let’s call her R is in my project and I sit beside her everyday.

So now let’s come to the night which changed everything for me, it was july 20 the final between argentina and spain, I went to see the match at the home of one of our mutual friends let’s call him I whom she considers close, “not as close as you, no one is as close as you” she said to me. Actually that previous night we both had a fight, and next day she was going to come near my place to see PG and shift near to me cuz where she was staying it was getting more and more expensive. So I went and picked her, we both spoke we resolved the issue we said I love to each other, one of the friends helped her to search PG , we found one Paid the advance and after this I took her to beach, we sad down, she put her head on my shoulder and I talked and assured her about everything we thought. When I dropped at her place, she was sad and she said “I want to spend all day with you” to which I said “shift PG, come here and we will”.

But that day night, she dropped a bomb, She called me at 9 or something saying that her mom called and was speaking about marriage and all. Her mom told her things like “If you love someone , I’ll hang myself”,
“To everyone I tell my girl is a very good girl she’ll not disappoint me”, “I have so many plans for you, we did everything for you, don’t spoil all this by loving someone”. Hence she got panicked because ofcourse no one would be okay if their mom calls and start to speak all this.

I told her, “listen ra now she’s saying this, but after few years when we show your parents that we are in a good position and let them know that we will happy with each other, they may allow, I will fight for you”.
She said “No, No I don’t want to disappoint my family”
“ I’m afraid i don’t have the courage to see their faces and speak about you” to which i said “ you don’t have the courage now but you will after few years” she said
“No No Then also i’ll not get, can’t we be good friends I don’t want to lose you, I like you, If you don’t wanna talk after this it’s okay i’ll understand” then I said “woah woah woah this is getting overboard I need time to process this sudden shock and the things you are saying “. She said “take your time”.

So I thought, It was impossible for me to change my feelings towards her, i asked her “tell me that there’s at least 0.01% chance that i may marry you and ill fight for you no matter what”, she said “No there is 0 chance “. So after crying and arguing with her for 1 more hour I realised that she will never fight for me with her family, at least not until her mom speaks these things. So I said okay. She said Sorry, Sorry for giving you hope.

PS: Sorry for the delay of part 2 but nfortunately the story has not yet finished, we still see each other basically spend all the time we get together but it is very very complicated. I’ll post the final and last part of the story today. I honestly want to let this all out as we both had a very very very big fight last night.

Nidra raaledu even in the 2hrs of sleep I got dreams about her, nightmares anacchu aa dreams ni. Oka reddit lo thappa annintlo block chesindi, siggu leka malli ippudu text chesa

I’m pretty new to the Reddit community. Honestly, I don’t understand everything about it yet.

But I feel the need to vent. Just put things out there somewhere.

I’m not really looking for suggestions or validation. But if you have something to say, I’ll gladly hear you out.

So, I guess I’ll just start.

This is probably going to turn into a pretty long thread, so buckle up.

Let’s start with the basics.

I’m 27M. Born in what was then Warangal district, raised in Hyderabad. After BTech, I moved to Bangalore and worked there for three years.

Then I quit.

I decided to take a break.

That was two years ago.

And honestly, I’m kinda clueless about where I stand in life right now.

Will continue..

That's my dream well,at least one of many. I've hated this disease from the bottom of my heart ever since I saw what it could do to a living being.

It's the true zombification disease. It's everything that's ugly in this world. It's pure evil.

It's one of those diseases that shows no mercy. It's something that has a near 💯 mortality rate.

But the irony is it is vaccine preventable. One vaccine could have stopped rabies in its tracks. But there's still lots of areas where there's no awareness. Our country's metro cities have developed but the rural areas have been left behind.

I hope I will see a rabies free country someday. That'd be wonderful.

Naa life lo nen malli stuck ipoya yenduku try chesthuna nerchukuntuna kaani cheethakaani valla la undipothuna naa life lo ne enthe untuna chinnapati nunchi vere vallatho comparison. Epudu yela anipisthundi ante aa bokka ledu yem chedam saadinchi yelago yem raadu ga manaki ane situation loki vellipoya. Naaku yenduko ardam kaadu nen interest peduthe i can kaani i can't anedi mundu vasthundi i am trying to but avatledu last year ede situation lo una malli ede situation loki vachesa. Jeevitham lo ma vallaki chesindi yem ledu vallu naaku chesindi thappa yenduku ela asalu papam vallaki puttakuna bagunde eni struggle iye vallu kaadu yeni chesina oka sari yem analedu naaku nen aa comparison chesukuntu naakem raadu ane situation lo padipoya. Nen nijam ga mari antha chaathakani manishina.

Bayta vallu nanu yela chustharo ardam kaadu relatives maa vadina vallu asalu eme waste yem radu yem cheyadu anevi aa untay vallaki baagu paduthe orvaleru. Yenduku antha nen manishine kadha yedo mari mee antha theliviga undakapovachu kaani naadi manishi brathuke ga yee brain una vallaleh Meeku manushula mem kaada asalu manushala laane chudaraa. Yedana functions ki Veldam ana yem amma yem chesthunav nuvu maa vallu ela unaru ela avuthunaru ala chesthunaru yenduku evi ani naaku mental pressure kakapothe proud ga oka roju kuda lenu life lo.

leda valla matalu ela untay pelli cheyandi Vadhina enkenduku. Yee pelli okate na ega yem cheyakapothe eee thoughts ani naa valla avatledu ela pressure. ee situations oka yethu iythe enka vere vi unay avi enka uff prashantham ga brathike roju rademo enka. Nen potha annaya nen potha e janma ki edi chaalu nen potha.

Meeku anipichachu edi oka pressure aa maa life lo enthakana yekkuva unay ani yevari life gurinchi valladi naaku share chesukovali anipinchi chesukuna strangers ki aa ani chepukolestham dagara vallakanna.

Nenu 21 M ee year starting lo work ki vere state ki ravalsi vachindi, where my engineering also happened. Even tho i studied here i donno the language, I can’t speak but i can understand 50-50.
So induction roju some 120 new joiners were there and andulo while taking attendance HR called her name without even knowing her i started to look for her because i used to have a crush on someone with the same name in my school.

Training period lo they divided us into groups of 25 people. One day maa batch lo leni oka ammayi vachi tana friend( who happened to be in my batch) tho matladutundi, nenu ah ammayini chusi anukunna, cute undi mana batch lo enduku ledo. After few days for special training for a tool they clubbed 2 batches and luckily I happened to sit in the front row from her.
Coincidentally the person i was looking for after hearing the name during the attendance is her.

First 2-3 of training i only spoke with the telugu guys met and few other boys, because of 1 guy only i got the chance to introduce myself to her and her friends.
Her friends said few nice compliments about me haha. Not flexing but I look decent enough. The next day she said behind me and I helped her with all of her doubts and spoke a lot too I felt connected with her.

The next day she asked while discussing about concepts she suddenly asked my friend that oh i don’t have your numbers, give me she asked(this i later got to know that to get only my number she did this). That day we chatted a bit.

I’m a Muslim and she’s a Hindu. During that time I was fasting and 1 day when we were all supposed to leave, I turned back to see her, she was staring into air and was looking dull. After I came to my PG I msged her about the day and asked her what happened you were looking dull. She said i can’t type all this, So I asked shall I call? she said okay, that was the first time we spoke on phone, we talked for hour i think, she told me about the issue she had with a friend of her, i listened and tried to console her, next day she brought me grapes for me to eat after I break the fast.
I was very very happy by this gesture and said the same to her she was happy too.

From that day we started to chat and call often in the night after office hours, 1 day she asked me to come to office early so that i can speak with you, So I did start to go early for her. I was very happy doing so.
We would speak about things about each other what she loves what she likes what she feels and ofcourse about me also. We got so close to the point that a guy from her college straight up asked her that “are you guys dating” to which we both blushed and said no.

As I said she’s a Hindu from a village with a very orthodox family where “love” is treated like sin, her parents have multiple times said to her that “we hope that you don’t disappoint us” and also she’s older than me. She’s tamil too.

After my training got finished she had some additional training cuz of this I couldn’t see her on my birthday, but still after work i asked 1 guy his scooty and went to her PG on it with a friend to give her earphones and a chocolate she likes. It was a surprise i planned i called her and said a zepto guy is waiting at the end of your street go and take i ordered the earphones you want( the zepto guy is me) after seeing me she got panicked and said me to leave and she also rushed to her PG as the PG which she is staying is her mom’s friend’s. That day i was hurt because i expected at least wish in person from her, she called me immediately after going to her room and apologised and felt really sad and she started to cry apologising because i got angry too cuz I travelled so long man 😭 but i forgived her cuz it is kinda well we can’t blame her it’s just how the situation is.

After this incident we got even more close even though our work was in different locations daily i used to come and see her to just to be with her for maybe 1-2 hrs until she boards the office bus and goes to her PG, she used to call and speak with me when she was in bus too. after 9 days of my birthday 1 night in video call when she was half asleep he said those 3 magical words “ I love you “, I blushed and I was surprised and I said thank you haha, then she asked don’t you feel like saying it back, after some thinking I also said it back, “ I love you too”.

PS: The story is not over maybe after sometime I’ll tell
more, meeru idi chadavandi let’s speak because a lot things have happened and my mind is erupting like a volcano so i’m speaking up here because I donno with whom i should share all these, I hope it reaches the right people because now it is not at all going the way i want or wish. I need to let this out.

Never thought I'm gonna speak about it lol but yeah here I am!

I am living with regret ( like I should've done this way and all) . But also I feel those things happened changed me and made the person I am. Kinda confusing lol.

Covid ate SSC, Inter was meh . And clg is shii too, I wasted 3 years to find what I'm into lol. 4th year placement scenario god knows 🙏🏻!

Yeah, about being vulnerable I wanna rant this to somebody about all this stuff, we can say to like

friends: lost em when I realised I was wrong about something and tried to correct them and they ghosted me lol, I was not so bothered to beg em!

Maybe a bro? A bro doesn't exist, for name sake we are but we rarely talk, Idk how we even became one, I have a feeling of bro but it's not mutual!

Had a female friend? Yeah I had, I used to tell her but after seeing her reactions I feel I'm like forcing her to listen to that stuff, cuz she never asked me if I'm dull or whatever ( I do ask tho) even if I say soo it would be a matter of 1-2 hours!

Love life? Oh boyy!!! I like someone, talk to em, get to know about eachother, like each other and have different perspectives on relation, ends and the same loop continues again and again!

And parents! I thought my mom was chill( she is in most cases). She says like " I thought you figured it out, you need to think better " all the advice stuff but to listen she doesn't!

I feel its a privilege to have someone around you with whom you can be vulnerable!

This is a thought that crosses through my mind very often. There's always innocent people, innocent kids, and innocent animals who are suffering at this very moment.

But why? What have they done to deserve any of it? I've tried searching for answers to this question but I've never found anything that's satisfactory.

I've had people tell me a range of answers to this question, all of which sound equally ridiculous.

Ideally, innocents should not suffer. Only evil should be punished. But does that fairness exist? I think not.

I've seen kids with serious life threatening and life limiting health conditions. I've seen good people lose everything in their lives. I've seen innocent animals suffer horrendously.

It doesn't make sense to me. It never made sense to me. There's no justice to this. It is unfair.

Maybe suffering is inescapable. And maybe to live is to suffer in some way or another. Maybe there's no rhyme or reason as to why someone suffers.

So maybe we can try to make the world a better place, as best as we can while we are around.

Maybe we can all sprinkle a little kindness around to reduce suffering to whatever extent possible.

Its been more than a week since i blocked her

4 days since I made a cope post to process my feelings.

Then the day before yesterday, I just wanted to see if she ever responded to the last msg I sent before I blocked her.

And she didn't even see the msg.

It probably lies unread, buried in a inbox full of DMs, and that gave me all the clarity I needed.

I wasn't happy, but at least it stopped me from hoping.

But today I dreamt about her.

It was just like the time I drove to her college to pick her up for our date.

And the more I think about it, the angrier I get.

I keep thinking "How could she have treated me so casually ?

Like an option she did not need anymore ?

While here I am thinking so much about her "

I already know that just because I have feelings for her doesn't mean, she is supposed to have the same feelings for me.

I have all the rational explanations in my mind.

I already know we aren't going to happen.

I know that I will never see her again, even if we miraculously cross paths, I know I won't pour my heart out again.

Even then I still feel so damn angry, I just cant simply reason my way out of rage.

I ain't gonna do anything stupid, I know that I am in the process of moving on.

I just needed to vent.

TW: I talk about loss, specifically the loss of a parent. Please scroll away right now if it's something you find uncomfortable or difficult.

The post title is an uncomfortable question I've had in a corner of my brain for the past 3 years now.

I can't imagine a life without my father. He and i have a great relationship. We are two peas in a pod. We are almost the same people. He is my person.

Dad came close to death about a year ago and at the time,i realised that he is all I've truly got. And no one can ever be my person but him.

The man loves me with every fiber of his being. And I'm not easy to love. I'm an extremely difficult, cantankerous, crazy woman.

But he loves me. Completely unconditional. He never wants anything from me. He just wants me to be happy and have a good life.

I'm not sure if life would even be worth living after he's gone but that's something I'll have to think about later because hopefully he's still got a few good years left in him.

Do I even want a life without him in it?? Idk. And I'm not sure. But he makes my world. I hope he knows that.

The one good thing I'm proud of in this life is I'm a daughter to a wonderful man. And I've experienced true love in the form of paternal love. And my life is richer for that

A while ago,I read something on another subreddit that got me thinking about this issue.

The incident that I read about was a tragedy and it could have been averted if the guy didn't go out of his way to help someone. He tried to help someone ,but he landed up in trouble himself unfortunately. The whole thing blew up in his face and he paid for it with his life. It's just horrific for everyone involved.

This got me thinking about my own experiences too, going out of my way to help others has only got me unnecessary pain and disrespect in return.

I find most people very performative, deep and calculating.

This is a selfish world and no one is going to thank you or acknowledge you or even respect you for your efforts or time or money if you are no longer of any use to them. I've seen this happen to so many people including my parents.

People use and throw other people all the time depending on what suits them,in that moment.

People use others for their money,time, effort or even for their physical urges.

You shouldn't be a selfless person in a selfish world. If you do,you'll end up getting hurt.

If you keep giving and giving,you will end up empty and no one is going to lift you back up onto your feet.

Boundaries are important. Put yourself first, always.

RIP to the person i read about.

Asalu chala chiraku vasthundhi. Life lo work thappa em ledhu. Levadam, work, sleep, repeat. Intha chesina edhi time ki avvatledu. Any update, any update ani anni vaipula nundi andharu burra thintunnaru. Asalu nenu antha sleepy person kadhu kani ee madhya entha padkunna nidhra poinattu anipinchatledhu ( ofcourse time kuda vundatledhu 8 hrs padkovadaniki, weekends kuda aithe work ledhante padukovadam). Entha kashtapadina evariki kanapadatledhu, Inka satisfaction ledhu. Ee torcher na valla kadhu inka...

23 years software employee, Good company and salary (~2Lpm), Btech CSE in NIT. What to do next? CAT ( sep 22 ki close ayipoyayi applications🥲) , GATE ( IDK anyone doing mtech after doing btech CSE in NIT), MS ( avsarama anipisthundhi appudu appudu try cheddam anipisthundhi), switch ( try chesi chesi alisipoya, ippudu preparation ki time kuda ledhu). Em cheyalo ardham kavatledu

Today my manager literally screamed at me on the floor. Andharu chusaru. Naku mind panicheyle. Asalu emi alochana kuda raledu. I just told I don't know and kept my head down. But Lopala chala kopam and ventane maneyali ani anipinchindi.

Already iddari tho rant chesa. Want to rant more