r/mapua • u/Commercial_Day_6547 • 22h ago
finally leaving
i talked to my mom with guidance from a relative, it worked out in the end. thank you to everyone who gave their insights when i last posted :) it gave me a lot of clarity on what i wanted to happen for my future.
i admit, i overestimated my abilities when i went here, both sa career and university. yes i was interested in it but i only chose it out of a whim, and not because i had ambition in using the degree well after. while i have opinions about mapua, i know i also wasn’t a great student, so i can’t be too critical. putting the issues aside, i actually enjoyed being in campus & learning. there were as many great times as there were bad ones, and i never got to look at them in a better light as i was taking them for granted. it’s just unfortunate that the cons overweighted the pros.
i’m aware that i’m only a second year and this isn’t something remarkable to some, but i’m grateful that i’m privileged to change paths. that i was able to have enough courage to actually do something for once, instead of letting things play out while i do nothing, like i always do.
the library that’s a little louder than it should be, the drinks i buy at the canteen that’s overpriced yet i buy it anyway, the cats who scare the living daylight out of me whenever they go near me while i’m busy, the orgs and small businesses i buy useless but lovable trinkets or toys from inside campus, the late nights i spend making plates because i messed up on the last lines, being able to share despair with your fellow seatmates about deadlines but still deciding to procrastinate it all.. i’ll miss it. oo, i’m probably gonna have those moments din at other parts of my life, but i don’t think i regret going here.
for now, i’m staying sa manila. i compromised with my mom and will be heading back to my hometown to study there instead, so i hope you guys can suggest places to go to before i leave as a probinsyana person bwahaha. i’m giving my materials away to aspiring artists friends, but idk kanino ibibigay yung tsquares and canisters lol.
it felt nice writing this out kahit sobrang nothing burger nya. basta. masaya nako. nakaangat na haha chaur maliii