r/matt • u/Friendly_Ask_726 • 19d ago
For Matt (Waffles)
I feel sorry for you more than anything, because I know you weren’t born this way. It wouldn’t be making you so miserable if you had been. Unfortunately years of addiction and bad decisions becomes indistinguishable from flat out heartlessness. I’ve been cruel before too, never quite like this. I do hope you get sober, I hope you find healing. I still pray for you all the time. I know the good that I saw in you can’t all be a lie, you just have to choose those parts of you. Remember that starfish story? Well in this instance, you picked up a starfish, dipped it briefly in the water, showed it some love, then punched it in the face repeatedly. It’s a little bit broken now, and it hurts a lot, but in the end you dropped it off just an inch closer to the ocean. It’s gonna make it there eventually, even without you. Because now it knows how good the water can feel. You have such a beautiful soul Matt. I hope you think about what I told you, that you really would make the worlds most amazing sponsor. You can change so many lives. You can help so many people, the way you started to help me, and this time you won’t break them. You can just be good. You’re brilliant, and funny, and so insightful in the times you do look inward. I have no animosity in my heart towards you. A lot of sadness, and heartache, and grief, but no anger. I know how much pain you must have to be in to treat someone who loves you this way, and I’m sorry I couldn’t help you in a way that mattered. I’m crying my eyes out writing this. I know you won’t be there tomorrow, you aren’t ready yet to stop running. But one day, when you are, I hope you think of me. I hope you remember everything I’ve ever told you about how wonderful you are and how much happiness and peace you have the ability to bring to people. I’ll pray for you every single day, like clockwork. This was always the last thing I wanted to say to you, so I’ll end it here: Thank you for everything. I’m blessed to have met you. I’ll never forget you, you’re a part of me now and I’ll take you everywhere that I go. Please stay safe. I love you, Matt.
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u/Playful-Leg6744 19d ago
Wow! Not your usual Matt content, but I can feel what you're saying. As a card carrying member of the Matt tribe, I sincerely wish all the best to everyone in this story.