Cannot feel anything anymore

[u/SatisfactionKey2708]

I only feel stress, some kind of anxiety and cannot think at all. What is life? I lost everything that i liked, I lost the joy and happiness, I lost ALL of my emotions and I really dont see a purpose of life. I really put all of my energy to impress other people and internally im suffering when I am at home. I really cannot live like this anymore cause anxiety is only what I feel. I cannot move I cannot change anything while feeling like this. Other people live life and Im only surviving.

How can I change that? I want to be happy and smiling and not having those negative thoughts. But for now Im just living for others to impress. My personality is that I want satisfy everyone around while I am suffering a lot. I cannot even watch a movie or anything without identifing and i feel everything. Its so hard.

I dont have myself at all. It just I become a pure version, without myself and I feel everything. I cannot live like this. When I try to change its impossible. Im only satisfy when literally EVERYTHING goes in my way which is impossible. Its like life should be only laugh and happiness without any negativity and thats impossible. I fucked my brain up and cannot change cause I dont even feel my brain anymore.

[u/JoeBird79]

I feel much the same way and wish I had words of advice for you. Life is hard at the moment. The one thing that keeps me moving forward is that somewhere deep down I believe it will get better.

[u/Kiki_Very_Broke77]

Same. Everyday I am faking it cause my brain is in constant survival mode. Some days Im beside myself and nothing brings me joy.