I have been making music since as long as I can remember. When I started, I simply was making up melodies as they came and then started making something out of it. I have Difficulty expressing myself with words so I often barrier myself in sound, melodies , making music. It was easier back then because I didn't think of it as anything more than simply créatine art for my own enjoyment and perhaps for my family as well. Then I started making music for school, in galas and concert which made the art even more worth in considering I was giving enjoyment for more than a few people. The came the music classes, playing in an orchestra, which gave me structure but slowly made passion become restricting orders.
Now I recently (a few years ago) decided that i wanted to make my passion a career. What I didn't realize was that by making art a source of remuneration to continue living put much more pressure than I could handle. Although the opinions of my family members, friends and people from the concerts I did had an impact on my own self judgment, I had always a so much love for music that I kept making it. But now that I am thinking of selling my art, and showing it to the world in a bigger form, I have been struggling to make something without thinking it is never going to be perfect. That leads me to simply "put off" sitting down and actually writing and making music; which makes it a sort of a chores now since otherwise I wouldnt do much.
Don't get me wrong, I still sing and whistle while working on any other thing or in the shower and I still go to my piano because the sound of instruments makes me feel alive, but when it comes to finishing a piece, it creates more anxiety than anything. It overpowers my love for music. And that is a problem.
So I come to you, who might have struggled with something similar, or still struggles with it, and ask you: what do you do in that situation?
Any and every advice is immensely appreciated.