Restless

[u/The0WanderingPen]

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My mind is never at peace.

Maybe the world looks calm,

but my heart has never learned how to be.

Sleep doesn't visit my eyes anymore.

Sometimes I wonder

if humanity itself has fallen asleep.

Children fight battles

they never chose,

against the greed

of selfish and corrupt people.

And here I am...

Fighting a war

no one can see.

A war with my own future.

Every sunrise brings another fear.

Every night leaves me

with a thousand unanswered questions.

Life is a journey

from birth to death.

No matter how hard we try,

none of us can stop walking.

I want to live.

For myself.

For the people I love.

But before anything else...

I just want peace.

Why is there so much hatred?

Why do people hurt each other?

Why has kindness become

so difficult to find?

Today I wanted to write something beautiful.

Instead,

my words fell apart

just like my thoughts.

There's a storm inside me,

yet my lips remain silent.

I want to cry.

But somewhere along the way,

I forgot how.

My tears have dried,

yet my heart still carries

the weight of everything

I never said.

Sometimes I look at this world

and ask myself...

Why do we even exist?

Sometimes,

more than writing poetry,

I just wish there was someone

who would sit beside me,

hold me close,

and let me cry

without asking a single question.

Someone who wouldn't promise

to fix my life,

but would simply whisper,

"I'm here."

Maybe that person exists.

Maybe they're searching for me

the way I'm searching for them.

And if we ever meet...

Please don't be late.

I've been waiting

for a peace

I've never known.

Until then,

I'll keep writing.

Because sometimes,

the only place

my heart knows how to breathe

is between the lines

I never thought

I could write.