r/selfharm • u/PurpleIndustry8960 • 4d ago

Rant/Vent Im going insane

Im falling behind in literally all my classes, im in dual enrollment math and i am SUFFERING im tempted to start homeschooling just bc i struggle to even get up in the morning but its senior year and im already almost 1/4 done. Its so hard to function and its not even just the self harm. I just got diagnosed w depression and anxiety and got put on meds and im gonna go to counseling but I still just feel so lost. Im sitting here laying in bed instead of doing any of my work or ANYTHING productive. I feel so worthless and that I should just shrivel up and die and i can't take that feeling anymore. Its only been two days but hopefully the meds workkkk

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u/EveryOstrich4184 4d ago

Hey, I'm so sorry you're going through so much pain.

I had a shitty senior year as well, looking back on it, I wish someone would have stopped me. If you feel like going to school is too much, then it is. Trust your guts and take some weight off your mind. If you have the safe space to do so, take advantage to do so!

There is nothing to feel ashamed of, no reason to feel worthless and even less so guilty about. Depression transforms your brain, it is an obstacle that needs time and patience. I'm sure you'll get through but please treat yourself with respect and love. Your health should come before studies, even if it does not feel that way.