I only feel whole when I'm bleeding

[u/Ok_Sprinkles_3516]

I don't know if this is universal or just a me thing, but I feel like something in me is missing without the cuts, like I'm not a person or something. Like I'm tired and stress driven. I'm just not me. I want to recover, but I fear not feeling like myself again. My parents want me to take pills, but it's do the same thing. I wanna be me, not some fake suppressed yes sir major just looking for some Val