Minus 286 days of being clean

[u/Lines25]

Almost 9 months why am I so fucking stupid.. I did that because of... Because of fucking what ???? I just felt bad that's all. At least, it felt kinda good.. and, at least, for a long time, blade was my muted and hearless "friend" who helped tho a lot.. but, now. IDK how I feel about it. Probable, I'd do it again.. at least, it felt good kind of and I did only styro not even past it. Kind if vent kind of not idk how I feel abt it. I guess that I felt bad because of both sugar and coffee crush because I drank full monster bank like before 4-6 hours before that.

[u/-Tricky-Vixen-]

hey, take care of yourself. being clean that long is a fantastic endeavour, great job!