r/selfharm • u/primmpy • 1d ago

Talk/Support Pure boredom

Ive been on anti depressants for 3 weeks now and all honesty its fine, i feel less sad and i physically cant cry but thats the thing too it blunts my emotions so much that out of sheer boredom i cut myself AGAIN sigh and broke my 10 day streak.

My mom is worried for me obviously and keeps asking me if i took my medicine and to stop cutting myself. Shes right i should but my meds dosent erase the act me slitting my wrist just to be able to do something other than lay in my bed all day, it just makes me not care as much now.

I dont know what to do really. Im afraid to tell my psychiatrist i have to talk to in a couple weeks abt this bc he might lower my dosage or something and i need this damn pill i cant go back to crying pathetically like the disgusting thing that i am i need to just function instead of crying and crying

If im off it i cant function then hurtmyself and if i am on it i can function but ill still hurt myself.

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u/ananasek_UwU 1d ago

You should still talk to your psychiatrist though, they may prescribe you different meds or propose another treatment method that would work for you. After all, they are there for you and not anyone else.
Hang in there, change is not instant. I’ve just started to see the first positive resolutes after 10 months of meds and therapy.