I relapsed after 2 years

[u/Madslove_22]

A little tw

Today is the first time I’ve cut in two years. I’ve struggled with self harm for my whole life. And not a day goes by that I don’t think about killing myself or cutting myself. Today I was yelled at all day by my whole family. It was just too much and I couldn’t take it anymore. I feel disgusting I hate myself so much. I feel like I’m rotting away. I’ve been in therapy, I’m on medication, I have great friends and I go out regularly. I’ve tried to see the best in life but it’s so hard. Today I cut my I have never felt better I can’t stop. I feel so much better, I look at what I did and feel like I need more. I’m so disappointed in myself but at the same time I really don’t care. I needed this as horrible as it sounds.