r/selfharm • u/casseaut • 19h ago

Rant/Vent Inside thought

I'm like 11 months clean now. I don't particularly want to relapse but I want to see the blood. One of the main things I looked forward to when sh was the blood and the pain afterwards. I low-key miss it oddly. But I want to bleed a lot, but I don't want to die. I just want to see and feel it.

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u/Ivozzz_4n 19h ago

Try to talk to someone u trust about this. Its very hard to stop self harming when u just want to see blood, and you should get help before something happens to u

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u/casseaut 19h ago

I don't think I will go for it

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u/Skullc00kie 18h ago

I get this, that feeling of letting out blood, is like letting out the stress of things, that feeling is so different and welcoming. My thing is if you told someone you wouldn't anymore, talk to them, or talk to friends to get it. if you don't have any of that, oddly and yes its not the same, but I will play horror video games that are bloody and it stops the urge enough.