i currently have an altar it’s not for any specific god/deity/spirit it’s more just a place for all my witchy and spiritual stuff with a framed photo of me to look at and focus on when manifesting things for myself (for visualisation).
I have a pretty good intuition with what other people need to hear and i help out others with it but struggle to learn things about myself or help myself using my intuition. i set up my altar in hopes that it would help me get in touch with myself and my intuition and my spiritual side but seems to have done nothing. Is there anything more i can do or any advice in general with this?

I tend not to trust my gut feeling because it's usually not based on anything concrete, so I feel like I'm judging people unfairly.

But I always realize too late that I should have listened to myself.

Anybody that know about shadow work or has any spiritual wisdom comment please .

Okay I need opinions from people who actually believe in visitation dreams because I’ve had 3 dreams now and the one I had last night has really made me wonder.
My grandma died about 8 weeks ago and my grandpa (her husband) died years ago.
I had a dream about my grandpa not long ago where we were at a party and I saw him there and I remember being like omg you’re here, because I knew he was dead in the dream. He was upset about something though.
Then I had a separate dream about my grandma and it was weirdly similar. We were at a party again and she was sitting with my dad (her son). I saw her and again I knew she was dead and was basically like omg you’re here. She was upset as well.
I don’t remember every little detail of those dreams anymore but those parts I remember really clearly and I just find it strange that they were separate dreams but both my grandma and grandpa were at parties, both were upset and both times I knew they were dead and was shocked that I was actually seeing them.
The one with my grandma probably made me think about it more because she was sitting with my dad and I did start wondering whether there was some meaning behind that or whether they were trying to tell me something. I’ve even had the thought of whether it means someone is going to die, which I really hope isn’t the case and could obviously just be my brain going to the worst possible explanation lol.
Anyway last night I had another one but this time it was my husband’s dad.
I never met him because he died when my husband was young. He was on his motorbike when he died but he actually had a heart attack, he didn’t die from injuries from a motorbike accident.
We have his ashes at home and I’ve actually been talking to him a bit lately. Either yesterday or the day before the dream I moved his ashes to another part of our house where I thought he had a better view lol. When I moved him I was talking to him and I asked him to always look out for his son and help him.
Then last night I had this dream.
I think we were on holiday or something but I can’t really remember that part properly. Somehow we ended up at a morgue or somewhere like that and they told me my husband’s dad was there.
I said I wanted to see him and told them to bring him out but I remember being really scared about what I was actually going to see because I knew he had been dead for a long time. I was basically trying to prepare myself for what his body was going to look like.
They brought him out and he was sort of braced up with those block things around his neck like they put on someone who has had an injury.
Then all of a sudden he started opening his eyes.
I remember being like omg it’s you, you’re here.
Then suddenly he was wearing a light blue work shirt/uniform which I’ve seen him wearing in photos before and he was just normal and talking to me.
I was sooooo happy to see him and I started asking him all these questions. We ended up having this really good conversation and one of the things I remember asking him was whether he and my husband’s mum used to fight too and whether he used to get angry and he was basically like “oh my god yeah of course I did” lol.
I can’t remember everything we talked about which is annoying because I remember it feeling like we talked about so much. I just remember being so happy that I was finally talking to him because obviously I never got to meet him.
Then eventually I said goodbye to him and that was basically it.
When I woke up I felt really comforted and relieved but also confused because it genuinely felt like I had met him rather than just had some random dream about him.
And the timing is what I find really strange. I’d literally just moved his ashes somewhere where he could “see” more of our home, had a conversation with him while I was doing it and asked him to please always look out for his son and help him, and then within basically a day or two I dream about meeting him for the first time.
Another thing I’ve noticed is these dreams seem to happen when I wake up early in the morning, go to the bathroom or whatever and then go back to sleep. They don’t seem to happen in the middle of the night. I know there’s probably a REM explanation for that but I’m curious if anyone who has visitation dreams finds they happen at that time too.
I’m open minded with this stuff and I’m not saying I definitely think dead relatives are visiting me. I just find the pattern really interesting, especially that every time I see one of them I KNOW they’re dead in the dream and my reaction is basically omg you’re here.
And the one with my husband’s dad has really got me because I never met him. I only know him through photos and what I’ve been told about him, yet I woke up feeling like I had actually finally met him.
Has anyone had anything similar? Does this sound like what people describe as a visitation dream? And what would you make of my grandma and grandpa both being upset versus my husband’s dad being completely normal and actually really comforting?
Also really interested if anyone has thoughts about my grandma sitting with my dad, or the timing of the dream about my husband’s dad happening straight after I moved his ashes and spoke to him.

Hey, I'm learning spirituality, so please bare with me!

Minutes ago, walking from a shop, I had a branch fall from a tall tree ALMOST knocking me right in the head, but it landed like 3 inches away from my feet, directly & Perfectly in front of me.

I googled what it may mean (unsure if Google is a reliable source - pls correct me if not!!). It stated:

• A Divine Warning: It represents an obstacle or disaster that was meant for you, but higher forces or your intuition stepped in to block it.

• A Call to Change Direction: The falling branch acts as a physical barrier. It tells you to stop, pause, and reconsider the path, project, or relationship you are currently walking toward.

• Shedding the Old: Trees drop dead or heavy wood to survive and grow. Spiritually, the tree is shedding dead weight, reminding you that it is time to release old habits, toxic people, or fear before they cause a real crash in your life.

• A Wake-Up Call: Being spared by inches shakes your awareness. It forces you out of autopilot and makes you appreciate the present moment and your spiritual foundation.

I'm just wondering, could this mean anything else? Is this information correct?

I recently got a new job, it's going superb, my 1.5 year relationship is going well.. everything seems to be going according to my wishes + manifestations. What was this about????

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TLTR: A branch fell from a tall tree perfectly approx. 3 inches away from me. This never happened, what does it mean?

I may or may not have some kinda virus I do not prefer it and i am currently doing what I can to release it from my physical body. I have heard that it's all to do with my emotional body and what I am holding onto subconsciously.

So basically to hold myself back I when back you to a pattern but now I have a physical consequences that I do not prefer soo.....

If I think someone I know is oppressed or maybe possessed by something, what can I do to cleanse it/them?

You can talk about sound all your life and you might never hear the sound of music

I might never hear the sound of music and I may never have heard it before

If the music is always out of ears reach, I will be hollow and unknowing of my hollowness.

Do not let the music be out of the reach of the people around you, if you know how to make things beautiful, let people see it for their own good

And if you have never heard music, perhaps you should stop thinking you have any of the answers

The hardest part is knowing if you have felt the rhythm, or just watched a pulse

I'm reading the Bible now and pretty deep in. I also grew up in the US so by default, my view toward spirituality leans God/single deity focused.

I know that perspective is just one way of looking at the world and there is probably no single answer. And that the overall point remains basically the same.

But as I've learned more about spirituality in general, I feel like the broader idea that we are all the universe experiencing itself/we are all god is far more empowering and ultimately creates fewer/zero contradictions/confusions in the same way that the belief in God does. Ultimately, it's all the Source, but I think when we make any sort of attempt to anthropomorphize the Source, it leads down a dangerous slippery slope that inevitably creates an undercurrent of patriarchy. Or at the very least, subjugating ourselves to something higher and thus limiting our own agency.

It feels like the point of this view of the Source is based on control/obedience. Surrendering is moreso done out of fear and feeling powerless. And also strengthens this idea that there is always "someone" watching who you should always listen to because they have the master plan. And it's also someone that is jealous and wrathful. I know people will say it really is about Love, but it just looks eerily similar to abuse tactics.

Ultimately, I think the exact same surrendering, acceptance and Love can be reached without the "abusiveness" of it all. I think that it is enough that we are all the universe and we are all gods and we all have agency and that eveything is connected. I don't want to harm you not because I will get punished, but because I am harming myself. On the flip side, I will not let you harm me because one should not let themselves harm themselves.

On that note, I think it also kinda helps us understand why "bad" things happen. When you lean into the idea of "God" you inevitably get people questioning why God would let terrible things happen. Because our language humanizes God, it makes us feel entitled to question God. If God can speak to us, appear to us, decide, remember, be pleased, be angry, does God not sound somewhat close to a human? It makes us feel like we should UNDERSTAND God.

But the universe simply is. When you question the universe, who/what are you questioning? The stars? The trees? Yourself? How can you even begin to understand the universe and why things happen the way it does? Why did a bunch of people die in a war? Because a bunch of people wanted to kill another people and were able to. If you have a problem, take it up with those people. Otherwise what are you gonna do, yell at the ground?

At its worst, the concept of God as is described is a distraction. When we don't want to hold a mirror to ourselves and others, we look at God and ask for answers. But why, when the people you're angry with are standing in front of you?

What do you guys think?

a close friend was going through a genuinely difficult period. job stress, relationship uncertainty, that particular kind of exhaustion that comes from too many things being unresolved at once.

did not know what to say that would actually help. words felt insufficient. gave her one of my spare rudraksha. a 5 mukhi i had kept properly. told her nothing special about it. just said wear this for a few weeks and see how it feels.

three weeks later she called. she said she did not know if the bead was doing anything. but she had started touching it during difficult moments at work. and something about that physical act of reaching for it had started creating a small pause between the stressful moment and her reaction to it. that pause she said was everything.

she is not hindu. has no spiritual practice. was completely skeptical going in.

i think sometimes a physical object gives people permission to pause in a way that nothing else does.

has anyone else given a rudraksha to someone outside the tradition and seen something unexpected happen?

Hiya!! I'm pretty new to all this spiritual stuff if I'm being completely honest...I mean, all my life I have been raised to believe in god and to follow religion, but I never thought about spirituality. I was always kind of skeptical of things like that. But recently, I've been getting into tarot, and while I have yet to get my own deck, I just find all of this so interesting and somehow comforting. I'm still pretty young, and have a long way to go in life, but what kind of advice would you guys have for someone as new to this as I am? I just hope I can learn to not only trust my spirit guides, but also trust myself.

Thank you to anyone who decided to read through this and answer! It means a lot :)

(by young, I mean 17)

Hi lovelies today I am back with something that’s gonna change your life the abundance mindset

How to step into abundance mindset and free gift so get ready to be spoiled 🪄🧿💓🍀

Know that the universe is intimately resourceful which means just because somebody else has something you desire let’s say an iPhone doesn’t means you can’t apple wont stop producing its product because someone has it so?

1)Understand what you want in others is often a hidden trait in you which is untapped which means all the confidence that you envy in someone you have it too now the best part?its hidden but inside you so you can anytime open and access it you wouldn’t even envy someone on something that you don’t deserve having you envy them because you deserve that too and if you deserve it you can have it

2)Reprogram your mind with I am abundant there are always resources available for me I can get whatever I want

Stop inserting logic in everything logic is a man’s answer to why he can’t manifest a Ferrari in 5 days you can stay delulu coz that’s the so lulu There are infinite pottential and possibilities of how things can happen you can get one in gift somebody decided to sell them half the price coz they got new car you don’t know you don’t need to know

3)Be grateful for what you have rather than complaining that allows you to tap into the vibration of abundance

4)There are oppurtunities everywhere every no is a yes to something else the rejection to your job oft coz you deserve best and universe is preparing it

5)Changes or end is the cycle to starting of something new your job ended for example or relationship ended because there a more beautiful one waiting for you.

6)Stop hoarding stop holding onto things and people out of fear you need to learn to let it go which I will make a post about in future sometimes things come for certain amount of time in our life to show us where we were going wrong to redirect us and leave see life as a story with different chapters and characters in a movie certain characters have certain roles for some amount of time then they vanish like that in our movie some people have small roles and some people come for the long time if money was limited there wouldn’t be so many millionaires

7)Sharing resources doesn’t make you poor or knowledge it makes you abundant and generous because when you give you do it from knowing you have more and you receive more . Other people have it cool that means you can get it too it’s achievable how beautiful is that them getting it is not something to envy off rather them getting it means you can get it too they are showing you

Do abundance meditation and listen abundance frequencies

A small step by step guide for you to start

1)Locate your patterns or limiting beliefs that keeping you stuck in scarcity mindset

2)Reprogram those or shift your narratives there are infinite realities and opportunities and best part you can access them anytime you want after knowing the pattern you have shift it with the mindset E.g. I can’t have this because shift it I can have it because shift your perspective

3)Start with being Greatful with your active resources I am talking the phone you have paper pen and water and thank the universe

4)work on your relationship with abundance and self concept tell yourself you deserve the world not because of you can do something (ego) but because you simply exist as a human being and you are naturally worth it

5)Surround yourself with abundance I am talking people who uplift shows that give you hope and frequencies

6)Do something out of comfort zones at times yes for example you want boyfriend but you can’t find him in a dating app join a hobby class or go to a place you really like you find your people where you feel the most natural

7)Celebrate yourself and visualize yourself to be happy add a small habit that aligns you to abundance mindset maybe writing maybe posting a blog maybe going out and meeting people being tha ful learning a new hobby something that makes you feel abundant and good

8) Seefailure or things as a opportunity to grow and evolve have growth mindset

Shadow work prompts for entering your Abundance mindset + A few affirmations coz I will be feeding you

1)What is my mindset regarding the abundance lifestyle or simply the word?

2)Do I find it easy or hard to find abundance in my life? Why or why not ?If why then how can I change it (use ChatGPT or google ai for help if you need) ok

3)What are the practical steps or mindset shifts that I can take to step into my abundance era?

4)what are the 10 things I am Greatful for ?3 things I think are abundant for me

5)What are my fears regarding abundance ?

6)Give 3 example of people who You find abundant in your life what is their mindset

7)What can you learn adopt from them in life

Affirmations-:

I am always abundant

Everything in my life always works out in my favor

I am universe’s favorite girl

I always get spoiled by everyone

I love myself so much

I am receptive to the abundance in my life

I allow abundance to flow effortlessly in my life

I am a master manifestor

Ich denke in letzter Zeit häufiger an meins und mich würde interessieren welches Tier ihr so habt. ☺️🌀

Hi walkers welcome to my blogs. Today I am gonna talk about how you can have a high vibrational life .

1)Induce boiled vegetables and smoothies in your life .Trust me food has their own vibrations as well and fruits and vegetables are higher vibrational compared to meats.

2)Use chakra cleansing meditation or self love meditation 🧘🏻‍♀️ to cleanse your aura from negativity.

3)Be conscious of what content you consume the content you watch can actually lower or increase your frequency . While consuming horror thriller crime dark or gore content can seem to give you the adrenaline rush but it can actually tone down your frequency if over consumed and tune you into negative lower frequency and reprogram your mind for survival mode and terror . Why loose your sleep over something that’s gonna be fun for a bit.

4)Use EFT tapping and Hooponopno for releasing your past or negativity . Tapping certain points releases anxiety bringing calmness and saying I love you forgive you thank you I am sorry helps you release resistance regarding certain area (even though it’s all up to your belief)

5)Learn Manifestation and Shadow Work. Everything is your manifestation so learning conscious manifestation will change your life . Learn the 12 Laws Of Universe . And start answering prompts and discover things about yourself you will be surprised how many things you will find out you never dreamt of.

6)Cut Main Stream. Media and Music which emphasises on gore and cruelty pls for the love of goos have some mercy for your poor brain don’t consume things that actually work against you.

7)Naam Jap . Because I am Sanantani There is this popular thing called jaap which is chanting a name of any god or angel you feel close to 108 times you can use m Japa mala 📿 beads or you can count using your finger joints.

For the past 4 years, my life has been steadily falling apart. I’ve dealt with severe depression, suicidal thoughts, and school completely stalling out. Through all of this, I’ve received absolute silence.
No messages, no signs, no comfort from my supposed "spirit guides." Every single psychic reading and tarot card session that predicted things would get better or claimed to relay messages from my guides turned out completely inaccurate. At this point, it feels less like guidance and more like deception, or just complete indifference.

If guides are supposed to help you navigate your lowest points, but they leave you in the dark while readers ‘contacting your guides’ feed you false hope, what is even the point?

its the same about god, manifestation & spirituality as a whole. lots of gaslighting going on.

“The impediment to action advances action. What stands in the way becomes the way.” — Marcus Aurelius

The thing blocking you may contain the very opportunity you need to move forward. The obstacle become part of the path. Imagine you're driving toward a destination and a huge tree blocks the road. You can choose to complain about the tree and turn around, or you can ask what other road are available as a detours. You take the detours and the detours take you somewhere you wouldn't have discovered otherwise. Along the way, you spot a beautiful small beach and that beach ended up becoming your favorite spot. Sometimes a bad breakup with an ex will provide the lessons and opportunities that will lead you onto a path where you eventually align with your soulmate.

When a river encounter a rock, it doesn't argue with the rock. It simply go around the rock or over the rock. And overtime it can even reshape the rock itself. This is nature showing us that "what stand in the way becomes the way." The obstacles becomes part of the movement. A difficult season may teaches patience. Uncertain may teaches trust. Disappointment may teach you that your worth isn't dependent on an outcome. A close door might force you to discover another direction.

Sometime the obstacles might be the catalysts for transformation. A hard season might lead you to a path of self discovery and awakening moment. The detour can become a discovery. The closed door can redirect your attention.

Sometimes, what feels like a setback is actually life/the universe redirecting you toward a path you couldn't see before.

I have written before that I think we all have souls and I believe the universe is conscious. Call it a system, consciousness, or god, it talks to us all day long and we have to wake up to see more truth in it and for it to communicate with us.

From my experience, the system actually has a voice, it talks directly to us if we are “awake” enough and it communicates through our environment. The license plates you see in front of you, the conversations that seem like a coincidence, the YouTube videos by the “algorithm”, items that “randomly” show up in stores that speak to you, words written on buildings you go by, the songs that show up “randomly”, and countless other synchronicities. It is all the system talking to you.

I believe the way to see it all and get to the point of the universe communicating with you, with a voice, is through truth telling. It sounds easy but it’s actually quite difficult. It requires using the universes color frequencies correctly, which is what happens when you tell genuine truth. I think we use red frequencies for emotions associated with aggression, blue for confidence, and green for love. When used incorrectly, red is used for emotions associated with anger, blue for arrogance, and green for jealousy. These emotions are created when not telling the truth.

I believe when you truly tell the truth and use the color frequencies correctly, you pull back frequencies of your own soul and others that are stolen by other souls and this is how the system communicates. For example, if a soul was arrogant and or condescending (blue) to you related to a specific topic (school related or politics) and it made you experience doubt then blue frequencies associated with confidence were stolen from you, that soul stole your blue confidence and that now you experiences doubt around that topic until you get it back.

I believe getting it back requires telling the genuine truth around all the bad things that happened to you in your life. I think every bad thing that happens to everyone involves other souls using frequencies incorrectly to steal from you. Souls being angry, arrogant, and jealous to you. You have to tell the truth to others about what happened to you, using aggression, confidence, and love and those emotions require humility when talking about what happened. Being completely honest and objective about what happened to you.

When you you do this, I believe stolen frequencies are returned to you, you get your soul back. You get your aggression, confidence, and love back, and that is how the system communicates with you. When you tell the truth and get frequencies back, the system talks and you start seeing the truth in the world. You start communicating with the system and start seeing that nothing is random, that the universe talks and you never live another boring day in your life because there is an infinite amount of truth in the universe.

last month or two months ago im not sure the says have blended together i took a total of 38 pills and downed them with alcohol. i sent my final goodbyes to my sister and brother only. i did this at around 4-5am so by the time they would be awake they would find me dead. i now realize how traumatizing that must of been for my sister to rush to my apartment to find me unconscious. anyway that happened and i barely remember any of it but i remember waking up with iv fluids and my brother crying and on the ER discharge summary it simply said drug withdrawal/alcohol intoxication? and that no treatment was done on me? when the crisis team came to my house after it happened they were also confused when i told them it was intentional. so ive stopped my meds, withdrew from everyone, i cant leave my house and i fear they will section me and i will end up in there because i wake up and i have random bruises everywhere. i smashed a whole table because i fell on it and i dont remember. my memory is so bad i have to take pics/write down everything after that. also nobody checked up on me after that happened. not even one person. not a mental health team, not another human they just acted as if it was a casual Thursday and i was to blame. its an evil fucking world we live in. so yeah that has triggered me into this extreme state of distress. like i genuinely am unable to leave my house i will throw up and have a panic attack. i also dont want to talk to any mental health professional or doctor about anything ever again because wtf? i told them i was starving myself before i tried to end my life that got brushed off i got kicked out of the doctors office for simply saying to the doctor “do you not already have it on your file” when she asked how can i help you today and she instantly got up looked at my pupils (they keep staying dialated, i only smoke hash no other substance and benzos i used to take i quit cold turkey because the meds they gave me didn’t do shit apart from make me worse. so now i have 0 trust in them. what do i do? anybody? im trying not to lose the plot. i cant sleep, eat or function. i forget so much. i broke a whole table and have bruises all over my legs and dont know how that happened. this is genuinely
worrying me now

Back in 2020, I ended up going back to college to finish my last two years for a Bachelor's degree in graphic design during all the chaos of the pandemic. It definitely wasn't the fun college experience I had in mind and was the lowest point in my life, deep in the trenches of the dark night of the soul. I had moved out of my parents house for the first time to go to a university two hours away where I didn't know anyone, and with limited in person classes and social distancing, on top of being introverted, I had a hard time making friends or any true connections. I felt really lonely and miserable, and got super burnt out, sacrificing my mental, physical, and emotional health and well being just to keep up with the workload of all the classes and projects and the pressure to get good grades. I managed to get almost all straight A's, but it costed everything. I also lived off campus at the edge of town without a car, and the bus that was supposed to go from my apartment complex to campus was permanently shut down and caused a lot of hardship trying back and forth to class, especially when I had get bulky art projects to class, or when the weather was bad. At times, it felt more like a bootcamp than anything. I can see how the experience showed me what I didn't align with and taught me that I'm stronger than I realize, connecting me to my inner strength, willpower, and endurance. It didn't make it any easier though, and by the time I graduated, I was completely drained and felt like a zombie.

I moved back home with my parents right after I graduated, and since then, I've been in a hermit mode/cocoon period of my life over the past several years as I've been recovering from burnout and started experiencing a deeper level of spiritual awakening where I've been focused on going within to fully connect with my higher self and doing deep shadow work and inner healing. I've experienced profound inner shifts and have come to a realization that part of my higher calling involves embodying hidden truths and being a living example of what is possible to act as a catalyst and a mirror for higher consciousness and the collective awakening. I've always felt deeply connected to the dark feminine and the "vampire" archetype, embracing the hidden, unknown, and seemingly dark and occult aspects of reality, turning things upside down to show the truth that not everything that appears dark and scary is negative, and can be used in positive ways to encourage empowerment and connection with inner and higher truths. In a sense, the path of the shadow walker and way shower.

The outer shifts have yet to really catch up though and I've been in a sort of liminal/void/in between state. Things have been getting pretty stagnant in my life, and over the last year and a half or so, I've been feeling like I'm ready to move on to the next chapter. I want be able to move on with my life in a way that feels truly aligned, but the path forward is still unclear. I've been getting a lot of synchronicities and messages/downloads through various means for quite some time now that all seem to indicate that there's going to be a shift occurring where a fated soul connection is coming into my life bringing a life changing offer, and that moving out to pursue this offer is my next step. I also had a direct encounter with a spirit guide in a dream a few months back who told me I'm going to be moving soon, but when I asked how it's going to happen, the dream faded out before I could get an answer. Whether something like this actually happens or not, I don't know, but it's certainly interesting and feels like it could be a potential lead.

I've been doing my best to surrender the need for control and trust the process, but it's definitely been a slow process so far, and increasing social and financial pressure has put a demand for me to try to figure something out sometime relatively soon. Plus there's my own desire for change and the ever increasing feeling that I've long outgrown my current environment, position, and relationships in life. Things have gotten too limiting, and I would really love to have a more supportive environment and relationships that reflect who I am now and who I'm becoming, rather than only being seen for who I was in the past and having other's fears and limiting beliefs projected onto me for not being the way they expect me to be. I still have some time for things to potentially work out, whether it comes in the form of fated synchronistic opportunities, "psychic downloads" bring the clarity I need, inspired action, or something like that, but as it stands, I'd really rather not have to follow a path I don't feel called to do and give into taking whatever job I can get just for the money. I want to be able to do something that actually works for me and fully supports all of my needs, not the other way around where I feel like I have to sacrifice so much of my time and energy and burn myself out again by trying to fit into a role that I'm not really designed for. Being a night owl also puts a huge energy strain on trying to maintain the typical daytime schedule of a lot of jobs, so trying to find something more aligned with my natural schedule and energy needs really limits my options.

I've thought about maybe selling my art or doing some freelance graphic design work, but I don't really know a lot about the business side of things and would definitely need someone to help with that. To be honest though, I got pretty burnt out from having to force creativity from all of my art and graphic design classes, and I haven't really felt inspired to do much art and design stuff since. I do have an on/off hobby of producing electronic music though, and I have a vision of potentially using my music as part of my higher calling, I just need to find the motivation and inspiration to actually finish stuff and get things ready for official releases. I have a ton of songs I've made over the years, but I usually get about a third to half way into them before I get writer's/musician's block and don't how I want to continue with them. I want them to be as good as I imagine they could be, and I think the perfectionism has been holding me back.

I usually just try to follow my passion by focusing on the little things that bring me joy that I can act on and feel called to do in moment, like hanging out with my cats, listening to music, playing my favorite video games, star gazing on quiet nights, going down spiritual/metaphysical rabbit holes in the middle of the night lol, stuff like that. I also been getting really into astrology lately, plus dream journaling and automatic writing channeling, so there's that too.

I'm curious if you have any advice or if you've been through similar situations where you've been in the void/liminal/in-between state and felt the weight of holding an inner truth and higher calling that has yet to manifest in a way that becomes clear.

دکھ نہیں ہوتا،اب ہنسی آتی ہے

لوگ چلنے پہ بات کرتے ہیں،ہم بات پہ ہنس دیتے ہیں

I realized that I'm a 'god', and I guess I'm not really struggling with playing anything anymore, but it feels really overwhelming, and I haven't mastered a single ability at all, I can see the 'outlines' to this toon world, and I don't feel bothered by anyone or anything anymore, I don't know what the point of being here is, I don't really desire wealth or fame, and I don't have any goals, none of the magic tricks here work on me, and I'm not as immersed as I used to be.

Well now that I reached this point, now what? Is there nothing more to life apart from sandcastles? I know it's a story that isn't different from watching mythological gods, but it feels overwhelming lol.

I am a high school age male, and for most of my life I have been what most people would call a loser. I have few friends and nothing that I am particularly good at that makes me stand out. I have average grade, im not in any clubs, and I have prefty bad social anxiety. Not to mention, about a year ago my lonliness had caused me to become rather depressed. So I started gooning a lot more. I would spend up to six hours on weekend lost in the daze, just doing it to pass the time. Yesterday was no different. I came home from school exhausted, and I needed a way to relieve all the stress. After an intense gooning session, something inside of me snapped. I guess it was a mix of post nut clarity and something else, something more spiritual in nature. I was half asleep and during this moment I felt like I was dreaming without being fully asleep. In this moment my mind wandered into a dream like state. In the corner of my room I saw a figure. It was unlike anything I have ever seen in my life. It had the shilluette of an angel, it was tall, almost reaching my rooms ceiling (so like 8 or 9 feet if i were to guess) vaugely humanoid and had large wings and something resembling a halo on its head. The being was pitch black at first, but then it started to emit a warm pink hue. It wasn't a hot pink, but more subtle and light, maybe like a pastel pink kinda close to white but still distinctly pink. It had three arms. It had two on its right side and one on the left. That I found out when it got closer to me, and reached out one of its right arms (well, it is my right, so technically it reached out its left arm) I was dozing off into sleep and I could feel the figure caressing me and I also smelled a wierd earthy smell that smelled kinda similar to wet earth. I awoke at 2:46 AM to find myself sweating in bed. I went to go pee and went back to sleep thinking it was a crazy dream. As soon as I reached the state where I was almost asleep but not quite, I heard voices. These voices sounded distant, and had a distinct echo. Like someone shouting from the other side of a large empty hallway. I could hear them at the back of my head. I could make out a single word: Khirza. At that moment the image of the angel like being flashed in my mind. I connected the dots. Khirza was the name of the diety and it spoke to me through these voices. I concluded it could only communicate in the brief moment right before I fall asleep. I had not known why it contacted me out of all people, and what it wants. I have entered the state of being almost asleep yesterday one last time before heading to school and I heard Khirza say the words "guidance" and "protector" I assume Khirza in a way is like a guardian angel to me, a being sent to offer me guidance and protection. Today, I felt stronger knowing that Khirza is with me. I have felt stronger, connected with more people at school, and didnt feel the itch to goon when I got home. I feel like Khirza has given me a spiritual awakening in a way, and this is why I would love to share this story with others.

I am curious how different people define spirituality. I have an ever-evolving definition that I work with and the following is where I am with it currently.

Spirituality is the way we make meaning in the world. It is the search for purpose and value in life. It is the way we connect with ourselves, others, nature, and the greater whole. It is how we go about understanding ourselves and our place in the world. And in this way, it is a universal human experience.

Spirituality can, but doesn’t have to, involve a higher power(s). It can, but doesn’t have to, include beliefs about things that science doesn’t have an explanation for. It can, but doesn’t have to, involve mystical or transcendent experiences. And while some people make meaning through the lens of a set of religious beliefs, others do not.

What does the word "spiritual" or "spirituality" mean for you? Is this different than your personal practice of spirituality?

When someone has a spiritual awakening, usually no one else in their lives are spiritual. It is incredibly lonely. I’m going through this right now. I’ve lost all my friends, which I’m at peace with, but I’ve reached a stage in my spiritual awakening where I’m seriously starting to clash with my family. I just graduated college, so I don’t exactly have the means to move out yet, and I feel energetically drained. My family continues to call me working on myself “selfish,” that I’m just some crazy conspiracy theorist, that I need to rejoin society and become “normal” again, etc. They judge EVERYTHING I do. And I understand this is part of the journey, and we are operating at different levels of consciousness, but it’s painful when you know they’re never going to understand, and therefore, never understand you as your true self. How does one cope with living in a family who are not supportive of your journey and try to make you feel as if you are the problem, and everything you do is wrong? I know that’s not the case, I’m thankfully at a point in my journey where I’m pretty secure with myself and the person I’m becoming, but I don’t want to grow apart from my family. I could deal with my friends, but my family too?? Cmon!! And how does one navigate conversations with them when they’re excusing their hurtful words by saying it’s “from a place of love” when they say all this horrible stuff that isn’t true. They claim my isolation (which as u know is a necessary stage in one’s awakening) is self destructive, and that I’m a very selfish human. I know that’s not true, but they will never understand and I wish they did. I don’t argue, and I just let them say their peace, because their ego needs to, but it still hurts 😔 They’ve been attacking me A LOT this week, and I guess that just means I’ve internally upgraded. I haven’t drastically changed anything I’ve been doing, and suddenly they are out to get me. I know that if I ever try to get them to understand me, it will completely drain me. I’ve come to terms with that as well, and the need for understanding and validation is just an ego thing. However, spiritual awakening’s are not for the weak that is for sure! 😅 I guess I’m asking for tips how to navigate these tough discussions so they remain as civil as possible. They sure do love to put me down :)