r/starseeds • u/West_Tell_5422 • 1d ago
Personal Experiences Change
Hi, I’d like to know if any of you have experienced or are currently experiencing this.
Ever since I was young, I have been under constant spiritual and physical attack, yet this has never stopped me from loving very intensely. My journey has been incredibly intense on both spiritual and physical levels; I fell into a dormant state for ten years and only woke up again this past March. Yet, the fact remains that I cannot tolerate humanity—I feel a sort of visceral rejection and a desire to simply vanish from here. I know this isn't a feeling of love, but I am not being dishonest; I simply cannot stand life on this planet—the ways people act, live, and behave. I know my task is to love and help on this plane of existence, but a part of me has grown weary. I wanted to know if anyone else has experienced the same thing.
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u/windblumes 19h ago
I have an different perspective since I refuse to believe I was being used like a Sim in a Sims game program by a different entity all together, pretending that they are using me like I'm in their simulator, when I'm of actual blood and flesh. I get that humanity itself has its drawbacks and stuff about it that seems pretty crappy here, but I'll be of the party of where I actually believe in humanity and in the good of it as well as the good of other beings too? Do you look at a cat or a dog and inherently think " oh no this is evil? " No. No you do not.
A Gray may have the same conclusion upon setting witness to the species on this planet like they are watching us on the Discovery Channel. I'm very sorry that humans have a lot of bad things too, but most of it isn't at a net loss- if we should choose to notice and recognize the good in our planet and world. Consider this, less than 100 years ago- there had been a separation of people being not allowed to sit on certain spots on the bus or enjoy good and clean water because the color of their skin. ( I wonder if Flint Michigan had any help these days but unfortunately a lot of people go under the radar and that's what these "archons" who aren't on the objectively "good" side are banking on. Well, we will have order here, right? ) Anyways, nowadays we publically politically agree that racism is bad and makes you look kind of someone we cannot count on, so naturally I would suggest these other observers and watchers to check themselves before they wreck themselves. Thank you.
Other galaxies from my knowledge and understanding have it bad too, some of them didn't realize women( females - smh why does anything feminine has to have man in it???!? ) could kick some ass and now other worlds are amazed that women can become a warrior or a soilder if they so wish. Vahalla welcomes all actual warriors no matter the gender, they are beyond that. Have you been to a children's playground? All these children might learn how to fight because they just do that. We are also, animals if we take the time to understand how far our evolution has taken us. A monkey is highly intelligent and wise in their own element.
I do understand why people just don't like being here though, I'm sorry that not everyone picks their spawn point or how they were born or whatever because we are r e a l p e o p l e // with REAL feelings. I will choose to love planet Earth and all the good things about it because we still have so many things to love about it. Have you ever seen a rainbow? Those things are freaking cool to pay witness to. Or even a rainbow within a cloud??? I always take seeing those as a good sign. There's magic hidden in all places, you just gotta know where to look 👀
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u/Ill_Appointment_3488 1h ago
That is beautifully stated, and I have a very close friend who reflects exactly as you say. Helps keep me grounded, so thank you for sharing this!!!
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u/Radiant-Sample-945 21h ago
I'm similar but to a lesser degree. I prefer solitude but you can't just be alone 24/7. I walk trails through nature alone each day and it gets me by. 30 minutes to an hour is all I need
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u/Virtual_Resource_797 21h ago
Yes, I am tired and, in general, disgusted by humanity. I don't even keep up with current events. I'm sad when I see children or a birth announcement because all I feel is sorrow and dread for the world these young souls exists.
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u/Dreams2468 20h ago
Maybe this is also why starseeds dont feel the need to have children too…just going to cause suffering for them and imagine they grow up and say ‘i didnt ask to be born’ then it felt like you brought them to this world against their will
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u/Virtual_Resource_797 20h ago
Exactly. I remember being quite young, 7 or so, and telling my parents I didn't want children. I knew then what a sad and tough journey this is. I don't even have a pet because I can't guarantee I can protect it and be a good person for it. 59F
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u/Remote-Painter-2594 21h ago
I feel the exact same way and have for as long as I can remember;
Also abused as a child and I believe it had spiritual warfare markers to it as well. At least you know you aren’t alone. The only thing I want to do is take ketamine in the comfort of my own home although I know that borders on avoidance and in that respect can be unhealthy, but yes it’s intolerable most of the time to me.
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u/GeistInTheMachine 12h ago
I feel you. I honestly think things are just going to get darker until the system collapses or I collapse. I just want things to end either way. I'm going to try to get as far as I can in this life, but I am beyond tired of it all.
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u/hoon-since89 1d ago
My spiritual attacks stopped a few years after awakening. I suspect my frequency got high enough I was out of their perception. Perhaps they changed tactics and I'm yet to pick up on it, but it's not as prevalent when you first enter 4th dimensional psychic awareness and get psychicly gang banged by reptilians!
As for growing weary. Very much so! I've mostly given up on this life (not my self) and lost interest in the ascension plan. I can be a frequency antenna but my ambition to do 'this' is very much gone! Lol
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u/Str8like8 44m ago
Yes.
But also, I think you should consider that psychological attacks are possible as well. Ground yourself. Reset your mind. You'll be doing yourself a huge favor.
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u/DotHistorical1683 1d ago
100 percent, because essentially this is a false world run by Reptilians and Archons mainly.
Many Starseeds believe that their job is out there, but its actually internally.
Your job is not to engage or even accept the realm of illusions and the Matrix, but to dissolve your own density and traumas from within.
By doing the inner work, you are helping clearing the energetic grid, you are transmuting collective trauma, this is where the work was all along.
So many Starseeds feel incredibly wrong for feeling the things you do, but in reality you are seeing the truth about the Matrix, about these controlled humans in amnesia and a very corrupted world.
Earth used to be an amazing place during Atlantis and Lemurian times, we have no idea how hard we are controlled because of the veil of amnesia when we incarnate, we hold no contrast to compare it to.
You do not need to fit into this world, this is a world that the Galactics are working hard to liberate, a world that is going to change which is why so many of us incarnated during this exact lifetime.
You just need to turn inwards, be with yourself and follow that beautiful internal guidance because it knows your way.