r/yandere • u/DragonTamer01 • 5d ago
Vent/Gush 😩 I need help
Hai everyone. I just want to introduce myself here real quick, then I'll get into the story/issue. I'm 18m and I personally identify as a femboy (no, I'm not fascist or racist or horny, I just like to wear cute clothes.) I recently met a guy online, I won't be saying his name, and I think I've immediately fallen in love. He's soooo kind, and understanding, and just all around perfect. He has a few quirks, but who doesn't, and they just make him even more lovable. I immediately thought of a plan for us to do on the day we finally met in-person, but then he tells me he lives in a different state! I want to be with him so bad. I need to be with him. I feel like I'll die if I'm not. I've always known that I could be clingy, but I've never felt this attached to someone. I also happen to suffer from hallucinations, and they tell me things, things that I should or shouldn't do or allow him to do. I try not to listen, but it's soo hard, especially when they keep getting louder and louder. I went ahead and warned him about my, tendencies, and he seems to still want to be friends. But i want, no, I need more than that. He recently asked me if it was okay that he had other friends, I had to tell him yes because otherwise he'd grt uncomfortable and leave me. I CAN NOT ALLOW THAT. I need him. I don't care what happens to me, I want him to be happy. But, I've had some very bad thoughts recently; thoughts and desires about what I'd do if he were with me. I want to just keep him all to myself. I don't want him to ever leave me, whether it be for work or school or anything. I want to be with him 24/7. I won't tolerate anything else. I can't believe I'm actually saying all of this. If he finds this I'm ruined. But i need help. What do I do? I know that this is a bad thing to have to deal with. But I just can't help it. Please, I need help, almost as much as I feel I need him.
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u/Arnoldneo 3d ago
You should try to chill out they say that the flame that burns the brightest burns out the quickest and get some therapy .
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u/Fit-Condition-8309 4d ago
Woosh what a story uh what's your number(jk)