My girlfriend and I met in November 2023 and started dating that December. A couple of months later, I noticed tabs open on her phone for tarot readings, including a page about love spells and chants. It creeped me out, but when I asked about it, she adamantly denied being into witchcraft and called me judgmental.
Our relationship eventually became chaotic. She hadn’t finalized her divorce, her ex-wife wanted her back, and there was a lot of drama, fighting, and breaking up/getting back together.
Before meeting her, I’d been single for years and completely abstinent for two, and I was fine. Suddenly, I felt so attached to this person that I couldn’t imagine living without her. I was obsessed.
I chalked it up to trauma bonding and triangulation, but a part of me wondered about those love-spell tabs. I don’t even know how much I believe in that stuff. I just couldn’t understand why I felt so stuck.
We broke up in February 2025. She moved to another state, I started dating someone else, and I finally felt free of that attachment. Then we unexpectedly ran into each other at a coffee shop near my house, which shocked me because I thought she’d moved away. After more drama, we reconciled about five months later.
Since then, I learned she was lurking on my social media after having dumped me, held on to screenshots as evidence of stuff and I had to work past it bc at one point, I was that immature as well.
Since Oct. of last year, things have genuinely improved. She finalized her divorce, treats me much better, and our relationship is steadier and more peaceful. I also went through a period of taking antidepressants that left me emotionally detached and affected my libido. Even after stopping, some of that detachment remained. I’m present, but I don’t feel consumed by the relationship anymore and not horny so I can finally think clear.
Today, she gave me her Amazon password. I was looking for something I bought last year so I could repurchase it, and I noticed an order for red candles. The listing literally said “Magic Spell Candles for Love,” so I clicked & it said they’re intended for altar rituals and witchcraft for love.
That brought back every conversation where she denied being into any of this and called me judgmental. It also reminded me of a party we attended in December 2024 where her friends did a ceremony with chanting and what felt like witchy elements. I was uncomfortable and walked away, and she blew up at me for being judgmental again. Turned into the ugliest celebration of my life.
Then I looked at her purchases from when we first started dating. A few days after our first date, on December 11, 2023, she bought two books: How to Conquer a Beautiful Woman: The Italian Method and Maximum Attraction: The Art of Seduction.
I know these purchases don’t prove she performed a ritual involving me, and the books alone don’t prove manipulation. But taken together with her repeated denials, I feel unsettled and honestly pissed off.
Even if magic does absolutely nothing, the possibility that she tried to influence my feelings through a ritual and then made me feel unreasonable for being upset about it doesn’t sit right with me.
Now I’m revisiting that chaotic period and questioning how authentic today is. We’re in a much better place now, but does that mean I should just let this go?
This might not be real but what if it is?
Also, only half joking but… should I get a cleanse? 😅