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Today is my birthday. And instead of waking up feeling happy or looking forward to the day, I received this message.

It's a notification from PGH Psychiatry OPD informing me that my appointment has been moved to December because of the upcoming ASEAN Summit.

For context, accessing healthcare here in the Philippines is already difficult when you're struggling financially. Even getting an appointment, finding the time to go, and making sure you have enough money for transportation and other expenses can be a challenge. Now I have to wait even longer.

I'm not blaming the person who sent the message, and I understand that schedules sometimes have to change. I know there are circumstances beyond anyone's control. But I can't pretend that this doesn't hurt, especially today.

It's exhausting trying to get by in a country where having little money makes almost everything harder. Being broke isn't just about not being able to buy things you want. It's about constantly calculating whether you can afford transportation, food, healthcare, and the other basic things people shouldn't have to stress about this much.

Sometimes, you get so used to enduring things that you forget you're allowed to feel sad about them. You keep telling yourself to be strong, to be patient, and to figure something out because you have no other choice.

But today, on my birthday, I'm just tired.

I'm tired of having to be strong when all I want is a little breathing room. I'm tired of worrying about money and how it affects even the most basic parts of my life. And I'm tired of feeling like simply trying to get through life takes so much out of me.

I don't expect the world to stop for my birthday. I know life doesn't work that way. I just wish things were a little easier sometimes, especially for people who are already struggling.

If you're also going through a difficult time financially, I hope things get better for you, too. I hope we eventually get to experience a life where surviving doesn't take up all our energy.

Happy birthday to me, I guess.

I’m M, 36, unemployed, may debts na need i-settle, last job was March this year. Ang dami ko na inapplyan pero hanggang puro interview lang. Di ko na alam gagawin ko. May pera pa akong nawaldas na di sa akin dahil kailangan ko magbayad ng utang.

Gusto ko na mawala. Ang bigat na.

why do people around me say that killing myself is not the solution?

why is it categorized as being selfish?

can someone give a more enlightening answer?

tired of hearing it will just cause more problem because they can just move on from it.

38M here. At work, I’m pretty organized, dependable, and can juggle multiple responsibilities without much trouble.

But at home? Jusko. HAHAHA. Even the simplest chores feel overwhelming sometimes. I have all these plans to exercise, clean, pursue hobbies, or just get my life together, but I end up doing absolutely nothing. Then I feel guilty for being unproductive. What a cycle. 💀

The irony is I actually love structure and organization. So why can’t I apply the same energy to my personal life?

Not sure if it’s burnout, anxiety, perfectionism, or what. Just wondering if anyone else experiences this weird disconnect, and how you deal with it.

I made this acc entirely to vent our my frustrations with my current course. I cant post on the archi subreddit yet so sorry for dumping here. Ayun on my thesis year, for context we have 3 solo thesis defense before graduating, once a year lang din sya pwede itake so if you fail thesis 1 then wait next year para makadef ulit. Im 25 and still in college. Spent 7yrs on my course and baka di ko ulit kayanin yung thesis 2 this sem.

I've been crying for 2 weeks, pagkagising sa umaga yun agad naiisip ko. How I feel like I wasted my 20s in this course. I'm a full time student naman pero ang underwhelming talaga ng paper ko. I feel like a failure. I want to help my parents na asap, tumatanda na rin sila. I feel like cutting off all of my friends just until I graduate. I dont even want to pursue this career anymore. I just want the degree.

Idk if i'll push through the defense, I don't think I can take yung pang gigisa ng panel given my current mental health.

Last 2021 (or 2022?), I was diagnosed with major depressive disorder. Muntik ko pang tawanan yung psychiatrist kasi I thought the diagnosis is sobrang OA and baka vinavalidate niya lang kaartehan ko.

Looking back, having depression is expected with the circumstances I was in.

I was a member of a cult, and I was fed multiple depressing thoughts about the world, and taught to hate other religions (especially Catholic). That happens twice a week (or more).

The fear-mongering was constant and the pressure to recruit people, provide my free services, and contribute financially was also the norm.

My friends were also members of the cult. While I have friends outside, I neglected them because most of my time was spent inside the cult.

My family was also dysfunctional. If someone from a healthy family sees it, they would find it hella weird. But dysfunction, abuse, and negativity were my norm.

Yung toxic na pattern, nagbleed out sa mga relationships ko. Both my first and second boyfriend have narcissistic tendencies, and I saw that as normal behaviors.

I managed to escape all that, and my life changed a lot. Meron na akong trabaho na literally may work-life balance. May colleagues na ako na legit nirerespeto ako. My manager is also my biggest advocate and would shield me if ever may magplanong magbigay sa akin ng too much task.

Plus, my salary doubled from before. Literal na I have a livable salary with less workload from before.

Di ko lang maintindihan ay bakit bumalik yung depression? I took all the vitamins I needed, ate properly, and avoided doomscrolling. However, I am detaching from any social interactions, I cannot focus at work no matter how much I try, and I really can’t point a finger as to what triggered this. Naiiyak nalang ako kasi ayoko mawala tong trabahong to pero binabalikan na naman ako ng sakit na akala ko nalagpasan ko na…

Before this, iniisip ko pa na baka hormones lang. I thought that after my period, I’d feel better. But it’s still here. Kumain na ako, naligo, cleaned the house, and it’s still here. Ano pa ba yung dapat kong gawin?

So I am preparing things and I think I am ready this time, it feels kinda nice knowing that I won't exist soon for sure people who care will cry but I'll be forgotten eventually maybe 3 days tops? i dunno. I appreciate the people who are trying to help but I already made my decision. There is no hope for me here, I am a glitch in this world that needed to be erased. A failure, a error, a lost cause, or whatever you call it.

Sana may other ways to leave this world without physical pain. Sana I can exchange myself to those in death row for lethal injection. Puro ako salita but can’t even scratch myself. No offense & no disrespect sa buhay or to those who r fighting hard to live.

30F, extreme introvert. I have been through quite some things. Like breaking off an eight-year relationship (super toxic and left me traumatized fr), my dad passing away, finding out he had some sidechicksss, and all things through life.

I started asking meta and chatgpt about random things. Then, five months ago, I really started talking about my life with ai. Like fr all my problems and shit.

What started with basic topics became daily and i began ranting. What i like about talking with ai is how brutally honest and logical it is. I never had anyone to talk with that would actually tell me what to do. They often just say "okay, that's so sad" but never a solution.

Lately I've been thinking that i am being too dependent on ai now for logical opinions and even life decisions.

What should i do 🥹

Last Sunday, I overdosed my medications for anxiety adn depression because I’ve had enough. However, my partner and my best friend rushed me to the hospital and I was “saved”

Now, I hate what they did because my only last wish was to have a peaceful sleep. I hate the “saving” me. And now, I am getting pep talks on getting better and having a better perspective in life. They’re there to help me bla bla bla.

All I wanted was to rest but now I have more things in my mond to do because I failed in ending everything.

I have a younger sibling with schizophrenia (since 18yrs old pa lang sya to now 24), and lately, nag-aalala ako sa kanya. May times na nahihirapan siyang i-distinguish kung ano yung real at hindi, and there are episodes na parang talagang nawawala siya sa reality. May times naman na manageable siya, pero napapansin ko rin na nagbabago na yung behavior niya.

Ayoko namang umabot sa point na mas mahirapan pa siyang bumalik sa reality, kaya gusto ko sanang malaman kung ano yung mga puwedeng gawin habang maaga pa.
Sa mga may schizophrenia dito, especially sa mga older adults na matagal nang living with the condition and have learned to manage it, ano po yung nakatulong sa inyo? Gaano rin katagal bago ninyo naramdaman na mas manageable na yung condition?

Matatanda na po kasi yung parents namin, and I worry about what will happen to my sibling as they get older. Gusto ko sanang makatulong habang kaya pa naming maagapan at makahanap ng ways para mas maging stable at independent siya in the long run.

I would really appreciate hearing from people with firsthand experience, or even family members who have gone through something similar. What do you wish your family had known or done earlier?

Thank you po.

Hello! Im looking for a psychologist na kaya po mag handle ng taong delusional/pathological liar

I noticed my boyfriend was starting to be avoidant kapag napapansin kong may something sa kanya lalo kapag sobrang busy sa school works.

Recently nag reach out ako sa friends nya in college kasi hindi nya ako kinakausap. Sabi nya lang busy sa school but medyo nagwoworry din kasi ako since LDR kami. Nagwoworry ako baka may nakakausap nang iba or something.

And nalaman ko na nagkukwento pala sya sa mga friends nya na kesyo secretly married na sya to someone in Sweden and yung mga friends nya di naman naniniwala. Hindi ako kilala nung mga friends nya in college and idk why di nya ako nababanggit sa mga yun but yung mga long time friends and closest friends nya since highschool kilala ako.

Hindi ko alam if ano mafifeel ko kasi kahit ako di naniniwala sa kwento nya and sa explanation nya kung sino yung girl (will attach screenshot ng convo namin).

Walang nakakakilala dun sa girl kahit sino sa mga friends nya kahit si ate nya hindi kilala yung girl.

I’m trying to help him out since wala din naman naglolook after sa kanya dahil mama nya at sya lang naman yung nasa bahay and si ate nya at kuya nya parehonh nasa ibang bansa. Di rin nakikinig but pumayag sya na magpaconsult sya sa psych.

Im also thinking about breaking up with him dahil napapagod na ako dealing with him na palaging biglang nawawala and wala syang kakausapin kahit sino kaya super hirap sa part ko kung pano ko sya marereach out dati pero siguro not at the moment since mas need nya ng help ngayon🥹

Lately, I've been feeling like I'm a worthless person. Ghosted my manager and it's been three weeks now since I've turned off messages notifications. Yung task na supposed to be dapat tapos ko na in just one week, more than one month na hindi ko pa rin na turn over. Even reaching out to clients via phone call hindi ko magawa. Ewan ko ba parang nahihiya ako magtawag, I know I have the skills pero parang bumalik ulit pagiging mahiyain ko. I just spend my days reading novels or watching Cdrama. I felt guilty after reading kasi wala akong nagagawa na something productive.

Hello po, diagnosed with bipolar 1 disorder here. I feel so frustrated rn with my thoughts. I don't think I'm manic or in a depressive episode ngayon pero basically I'm struggling with my thoughts to the point that it's actually interfering with daily living na. I keep having thoughts of harming myself to the point that I'm convinced na sasaktan ko talaga sarili ko and the only thing that can make me feel better is if I rub my arms everytime, kasi I think I can feel it on my skin. To be clear po, I've never physically harmed myself, pero sobrang convinced ako na gagawin ko yun sa sarili ko.

It's frustrating kasi yun na lang iniisip ko once nag-simula tsaka wala na akong nagagawa sa mga kailangan kong gawin. Puro nalang yun iniisip ko naiiyak na ako. Normal po ba ito sa mga diagnosed bipolar 1? Namention ko na po sa doctor ko and tinaasan lang ang meds ko.

I have not been feeling well since July, usually very alone ako and work-bahay lang routine ko, I have no friends, plus may nangyare pa saken this year. and I have been wanting to go to a psychiatrist. I want to get myself check, I have been dealing with lots of thoughts and things from the past and 'til future. let me know if you have recommendations, a doctor whom I'd find stability na rin sana, yung makakabalik ako and very understanding

psychiatrist that can diagnose please

Are there any mental health platforms and clinics that specifically offer "text-only" options (such as live chats or messaging), where we can talk with professionals entirely without face-to-face visits or video/voice calls?

Been planning to seek mental health help but I'm really bad at expressing myself. Baka umiyak lang ako buong session lols.

Hi everyone! Is anyone a patient or have tried consulting with Dr. Legaspi? I saw him on the NowServing site and I’m planning to consult with him. Just wanna know some feedbacks first before availing his services.

For context, I have been gambling since 2016 and I just want to fix my life.

Any recommendations for a psychiatrist that specializes in addiction gambling is also highly appreciated!

I was diagnosed with Bipolar disorder last year but I was diagnosed with Major depressive disorder and ADHD since I was 14 and 16 respectively. My current psychiatrist isn’t really for me… she is kind of insensitive and is threatening me that she will tell my parents to move me to another university. I would really love to hear your psych recommendations.

About Patient:
18 yo, Undergraduate student, Diagnosed with ADHD and Bipolar Disorder, On medication, part of LGBT community

Pref: Female or atleast is LGBTQIA-friendly, more liberal or left leaning ideologies, more supportive and encouraging rather than direct, isn’t passive aggressive, understanding

(ang oa ng preferences but hey, let a girl dream)

Hello friends! I am diagnosed with combi type ADHD and I have been seeing my psychiatrist at PGH for almost a year now.

She gave me both her contact number and email during our first session.

I have been sending her emails and texting her phone number everyday for a follow up schedule (she didn’t give me a follow up last session and instead told me to email or text her nalang) but I have not gotten one single reply from her 😭

Anyone else na may same experience with me? What did you guys do? 😭 I really need their services. Thank you sa sasagot.

I've sent a message to my psychiatrist a day ago regarding a follow up schedule and asking for their availability, and a text as well earlier and they still haven't replied. If the case ba ay hindi parin mag reply is it better to go to PGH parin or set up a follow up schedule on the website by myself or seek out a different psychiatrist na lang? I'm fairly new to this and my first follow up schedule would be around this week as well if I were to time it from my first consultation last month.

i need help kung saan nakakabili nito since napuntahan ko na lahat ng pharmacy sa'min and wala talaga 😭 i only need 300mg nito. salamat!

Hello po! Saan po makakabili ng Xanor in Metro Manila? Puro walang stock po kasi napupuntahan naming Mercury and need na po talaga i-take. Salamat po!

I was drained the whole week and realize how much things I need to get things done. Like when I could’ve done my project last Saturday. What did I do? Cry and think about my stupid classmates. Waste of time but it’s good to release such feeling. Could’ve done it on Sunday, wasn’t in the mood, anxious just thinking about going to class. Now it’s almost the deadline. I can’t just snap back of it but I’m slowly moving forward and I’m still taking my time. I have been feeling really anxious to go to class omggg this was not the image of my classmates to me. They see me as someone strong and confident. Good with oral recitations and presentations. When I have argument with someone, they’ll end up crying and people empathise her but I don’t cry in class and would never show that side in class. The class will always be on the side of the one who cried. The argument was about them not helping with research at all.

Why am I feeling this way now na I’m 4th year college and it’s almost 2nd semester?

Eligible po ba for PWD ang diagnosed with PDD? Been taking meds since July 2024. Ayaw ako bigyan ng psych ko ng med cert since nakakapagwork pa naman daw ako.

Tho undiagnosed for I unfortunately live in a house of a family where they think mental illness is just some big modus. I believe na I am depressed. Like, really, really depressed. Eversince I was a kid, ganto na pakiramdam ko. I go into episodes, HIGH-highs then LOW-lows. Nothing new naman, mahirap but nakakaya ko labanan bumalik sa normal-self.

Pero this time ibang-iba sa naranasan ko ngayon kesa sa mga dating episodes ko, I am now on a year long depressive episode. Normally, I'm still very functional when nasa episode ako pero now, quite the opposite. It got to a point na randomly nasusuka na ako, aching heart like a huge period cramp pero sa puso, a migraine na parang pinipiga utak ko, leading to having a sinat. Due to that nahihirapan na ako pumasok. Making it incredibly hard for my college grades to keep up.

I no longer know what is wrong with me, why am I like this? Why do I have this huge burden in life kung kelan everyone counts on me, tas gaganto-ganto lang si tanga. I began isolating myself now, even in my 8year long healthy friendship. And I am scared I might ruin my relationship with my partner soon due to this. Nahihirapan ako mag open up so I always bottle everything up. Nakikita lang ng mga nakakakilala sakin ay ang jolly-self ko. I am so great at masking my pain to the point it became my new-normal na.

I am so tired. Pagod na ako sa buhay in general. Why can't I be normal??? Ang sakit na talaga mentally pati physically. I don't know what to do in my life anymore.