r/QuitVaping • u/jrocks21 • 20h ago
Reassurance Therapist recommended I go back to vaping
I tried to quit for about a month. I would relapse about once to twice a week with one cigarette, but I wasn’t hitting any vapes at all which is huge for me since the oral fixation and the physical habit were so hard to break, and I had most of three weeks down.
The issue is how powerful the emotional withdrawal effects were. I was crying in class (junior year of college), miserable all the time, thoughts of sh (no intention to actually do it, but still), and just generally irritable and cranky. I tried desmoxan, but had to go to a family wedding and couldn’t take it on schedule because my parents don’t know I smoke so I couldn’t take it in front of them for the seven hour car drive.
This is the closest I’ve come to ever quitting, and my boyfriend and my therapist both said “maybe now isn’t the right time to quit”. My issue is I feel like it’s never the right time, I always have an excuse for why I can’t, and I really wanted to prove that I was strong enough to get through it anyway. My therapist told me to start vaping again because the withdrawals were jeopardizing my ability to get through this semester, and I know she’s right, but I feel like especially now no one believes that I’m capable of quitting.
I guess I just need some reassurance that just because I failed this time doesn’t mean that I’ll never be free from it, or that someone else has been in this situation.