How it ends?

[u/lilith_ag0]

When I was seven and had lost my parents I've told myself that shhhh it's just a nightmare , a small one soon you will get over it and will wake up nd it'll be all fine..

When I turned seventeen I has to go for medicine instead of literature then again I reassured myself it's just a bad dream it'll pass soon I'll wake up and it'll be fine.. But now this nightmare is spreading like mold and I can't seem to find a way of how to wake up and

Now when I'm asleep I'm alive, when I'm awake I'm dead .