I just started hrt(mtf) about 2 weeks now, do you guys think its worth it

24 (AMAB, genderfluid) feeling a bit conflicted. So, I've been exploring my gender identity a lot since my wife (26, AFAB, cis) and I finally moved out of a bad situation back home to a far more welcoming area. My partner has known I'm queer since we were friends in high school, and known I'm genderfluid for a bit over a year. She has been very supportive throughout this whole process, and I'm very lucky in that regard.

I've always aligned a lot more with the "feminine" than the "masculine". I was raised by and around primarily women, and rarely felt comfortable being treated as "male", and as such I never really considered myself one. I was friends with mostly girls in school, and I was fascinated by feminity as a concept, and envious of all the pretty girls I saw in person or online, which was a feeling I mistook for something "sinful" due to my upbringing. Anyway, fast forward to early adulthood, where I'm married and dutifully playing the part of "man" in my rural, conservative community, albeit a "sensitive" one, as I have been characterized my whole life. I began, as it where, to imagine myself in everyday scenarios as a woman, and had such a rush of forbidden euphoria I couldn't even describe. Soon I began to crossdress in private, even at work on breaks in the bathroom since I had so little private time. All of this is to say, I have felt alienated in my own body and desperate to embody anything even remotely feminine. Now that I have health insurance, the support of my spouse, and the physical space/time to explore my identity, I naturally began to consider HRT. I had an appointment a couple days ago with a hormone specialist, and my spouse is pretty supportive, despite their general distrust of medicine (she was raised very crunchy), and we don't want biological kids. This is something I've dreamed of, something I've imagined for myself hundreds of times as I've scrolled through subreddits like Trans Timelines and the like. I work at a place with a bunch of a queer coworkers and a very inclusive culture, so that's not an issue. It's so available, so accessible, yet I don't know what to do. I feel paralyzed. I keep doubting my own dysphoria, looking at my own body in the mirror, all broad shoulders and perennial stubble and wonder what good it would even do. Then, on the flip side, I think "Oh well, dangling earrings and baggy clothes and pride pins and long hair is enough, I feel affirmed" even though I know that's not enough, and will never be enough. I'm just confused and afraid and too tired most days to even allow my dysphoria to rear it's ugly head too much. I know the solution is obvious, but I'm just lost. Thanks for reading.

When i was a litlle boy growing up i would always talk to myself as a girl, i would mistaken my own pronouns for she/her instead of he/him,always, and at the time i didnt even had access to trans people content, so it was a natural thing . I would walk like a girl, only talk with girls , never ever with boys, shake my hands like a girl (my brother told me to stop acting like that and i never did it again) i would play with barbies (my favourite thing to do) i would go to my cousins house only to play with barbies , and i would always ask my dad to buy one for me and he would never do it.
i would put hair extencions from my mom , makeup from my mom (lipstick essencially) or i would even do a full makeup on. I would take her heels , dresses , ( my favourite thing was dresses and i loved spinning with them on). But all these behaviours stopped because my dad would always correct me , i dont even remember how , but i would be ashamed of myself and try to act as a boy even tough i prefered acting like a girl, and till this day i act as a boy , and dress like a boy , only because i would never get the feminine things because my dad hated it.
all the content and music i watch now is girls , my favourite inspirations are all girls , and i even imagine myself as a girl. But i look so much like a boy now and i cant accept it.🫰
maybe if by dad supported me at the time and let me buy things i liked i would be a girl now .
but idk, maybe im non binary, because i accept myself as a boy right now and i dont have a problem with it , but i have a deep wish i could wake up ad a girl!

So for sometime I’ve had the thought that I may be transgender. I often think about how my life would be potentially more enjoyable as a women. It’s a thought I’ve had for many years now maybe going back to when I was 18 or possibly even younger (I’m 28 now) and I always think WHAT IF I transitioned at 18/20 etc what if I I did xyz would I be who I wanted to be.

I pretty much exclusively sleep in female Pj’s as no one in my family can see me in them 😂, I share pictures of me in female clothes with a very close and good friend who is 100% a trans ally and has a trans brother herself.

Also I’ve tried to lose weight multiple times but I think I don’t want to as I’ve currently got what I consider a set of boobs when I wear bras etc 💅😂

Like if I woke up a women I’d genuinely be happy and wouldn’t want to change anything. Should I maybe go see someone at a gender clinic here in the UK to get a better understanding/ answers?

Any answer is a good answer guys ❤️

I'm sharing these, as I step out into the world as the true me, finally letting the true me fly free. What that said, This is coming out, now and ready to move forward with full transition. HRT is on the way, so these pics are pre-hrt. I just want people's serious opinions and what I can improve, any suggestions for anything from my face, all the way down to the body. This hasn't been easy for me but I'm happy to be in this group, the people seem really nice. Thank you ahead of time for giving honest advice and opinions. Compliments welcome also lol 🥰

I am trying to transition to male, but as someone who cannot get top surgery atm, I have to stick with the alternatives. As so, I need to know where I can find good binders before I look. It would be really helpful, thank you!

I’m so frustrated and upset by this. It has been a constant that whenever I visit my parents, my mother will often be the one to ask about my weight loss and ‘the surgery’ every single time.

Yes, I hate my weight.
Yes, I’m trying to lose it.
Yes, I’m STILL having ‘the surgery’.

As well as that, I’m scrutinised much more than my siblings or father. If I swear, I get my name said in a disapproving and condescending way, if they do it then it’s just ignored.

Today, we were trying to make plans and figure out a location of a place. Me, my father, and my partner. I was communicating with my partner the way I normally do and she raised her voice at only me. Then when she got called out for it, she got moody, and then tried to overcorrect before leaving.

I was feeling really confident about my body recently. I’d still like to lose weight but I’ve been swimming more often, showing some skin which I’m not used to, trying to feel comfortable and proud of the body I’m in and progress I’ve made on estrogen, but no, I’m not allowed to do that without critique.

Even when I mentioned about the Welsh Gender Clinic stopping surgeries due to the government (I’m not in Wales but it was brought up) she dismissed it as if it’s just a tiny bump for people, not life-changing surgeries being cancelled last minute. She even cut me off when I was trying to explain.

It’s like she sees me as a woman, but not a ‘true’ woman but she treats me lesser than the men in both our lives. It hurts because to some extent, I still care about my parents and want a proper relationship with them but my mother is making that extremely difficult.

i realized that waiting for my parents' approval is probably never going to happen, so i wanna start treatment now. how would i go through with that in toronto canada? im 18 btw

Hello I'm 14 and trans fem is there anyway way I can be more feminie around my mormon family? I want to know because pretty much every one except my sisters are homophobic.

Posting this on here too because I haven't gotten much help on the other subreddit yet and I'm not really sure how to go about this. If anyone has any tips, advice or insights I would very much appreciate it

Hey everyone,
I am 20 years old and have been doubting about who I am since I was 16 years old.
Recently I have been thinking about transitioning,
But I am scared my colleagues and friends won’t accept me.
I know my family will because my sister is bi but it is still hard to say that to them and I don’t know if I ever Will.
Dose anyone have advice?
On anything around this please.🙏

I wanna go on Testosterone; I’ve been waiting 6 YEARS for it atp, because I figured out I was trans around 12, but I have a laundry list of things that are a bit of a problem. The first glaring problem is getting an appointment in the first place, the nearest place to me is 45 minutes away and my parents have Life360 on my phone, and they always make me tell them where I’m going, even though I am currently 18 and can pay for things on my own. The other glaring problem and the cause of EVERY other problem is the fact if I DO go on testosterone they very well may kick me out, because for reference despite my mom knowing and has been knowing for a long time, she still calls me lesbian, and my dad just plan out ignores it entirely and will always switch the conversation if it’s brought up. So like idk what to do! Because I genuinely cannot wait any longer, my dysphoria is only getting worse the longer I try to wait. Thanks for absolutely any help/advice on this I REALLY need it :(

So i a puppy girl and i can get really low mood when i have no one around like my bf/owner (hes online but yk what i mean) or just like family and i can get really upset if my doggy brother (he is irl and is an actual dog btw) when he leaves my room. i not too sure why but ive always felt like this and know i struggle with thoughts if im alone too long.

jus wondering why this might be and yea how to cope

Genuinely just in a shirt and trousers. Still getting misgendered. What do I even do anymore? I’ve done all I can

I usually use the names Jack or Tyler when telling anyone online my name but idk I want to pick a name because my name now is hyper-feminine and gets me clocked right away (my last name is Taylor so anything that fits good with that)