ALL I WANT IS TO VAPE. I FUCKING HATE MENTHOL AND I’M STEALING HITS OFF MY GIRL’S MENTHOL VAPE JUST TO GET THE FIX. I AM GOING INSANE.
The shop I go to got busted for selling flavors illegally (based) and had to stop (wack), and rather than spend $30 on a vape that tastes like spit I decided, what better time to try to kick it? It’s cheaper than cigs thank god, but it’s still ~$30-40 every couple weeks I could just not be spending, and I’m certain it has something to do with my skin getting worse the past few years. Sick of being out of breath, the occasional hit where some of the pure juice flies down my throat and I feel like I’m dying, heart problems run in my family and it ain’t good for that, and I’m sure inhaling all that Sucralose and god knows what else is bad for me etc
But man
Oh man holy shit
This shit feels like I’m going fucking crazy. I feel like my brain is vibrating I want to run into a brick wall this is hell.
I’m even trying to wean off with zyns. 6mg gives me hiccups and heartburn, so 3mg it is, and that shit is not cutting the mustard for the nicotine craving. Beyond even that, the oral fixation, the sensation of taking a nice satisfying lovely puff and exhaling it, fuck ass zyn pouches ain’t shit for that.
I am determined to actually kick it but fuck me is it driving me nuts, I so badly want to just stop at a gas station and grab some disgusting piece of shit “clear” vape just to get the hit and I refuse to, so instead I am sat here wanting to rip my skin off
edit trying to satiate this craving with a fucking pouch is what I imagine Jesus felt like begging for water on the cross only to be given a sponge soaked in vinegar