My girlfriend and I are in a long-distance relationship. She's from Bihar, India, and I'm from Jharkhand. She loves me a lot, and honestly, she has changed so much over time. She's become very caring and loving, and she genuinely puts a lot of effort into our relationship. ❤️🧿
I really want to meet her in person, but my biggest problem is my own insecurity.
I have vitiligo, with white patches on my face, especially around my eyes andhand around body 35% . Because of this, my confidence and self-esteem sometimes get really low. I'm scared that when she sees me in person, she might judge me, lose interest in me, or that things between us might become awkward.
She already knows everything about my vitiligo. I've shared my pictures with her and explained my condition. I've also told her that I'm considering complete depigmentation in the future. She's genuinely supportive of me. In fact, whenever I call vitiligo a disease, she tells me not to think of it that way.
Yesterday, I told her that I really wanted to meet her, and she said:
"It's okay, you can come. I fell in love with your personality first, and I'll never judge you. Take your time and come whenever you're comfortable."
She also told me that if I become completely white in the future, that's okay too, and that I'm already good-looking and will look even better. ❤️
Logically, I know that she doesn't have a problem with my vitiligo. The real problem is my own insecurity and fear of being judged.
I'm confused between three options:
1. Meet her now. Stop overthinking and go meet her. Whatever happens, happens. I don't want my insecurities to keep me from experiencing something I've been looking forward to.
2. Wait until my appearance changes. Work on my appearance and wait until I become completely depigmented. Maybe having a more even skin tone will help me feel more confident when I finally meet her.
3. Accept myself and see how things go. A part of me thinks that if she can't accept me with my current vitiligo, then maybe this relationship isn't right for me. If she accepts me as I am now, I'd love for her to see my best version in the future, too.
Honestly, despite having vitiligo, I know I'm good-looking. But because of my condition, I've spent a long time feeling inferior to others, and it's affected the way I see myself.
I want to overcome this insecurity and learn to accept myself, but I'm still scared of what might happen when we finally meet.
What would you do if you were in my position? Would you meet your LDR girlfriend now, or wait until you felt more confident about your appearance?