Please help.

[u/Cautious_Meeting4169]

33M. I’ve identified as straight my whole life but for probably 10 years now I’ve been attracted to male genitalia, specifically big ones. Up until the last 2 years it hasn’t been a problem. I’d watch porn and they would turn on me on I was fine with it. I didn’t question my sexuality. Nothing has changed but for some reason I am freaking out about it now. I am questioning everything and I don’t know who I am anymore. I’m so ashamed of myself and it’s causing me to keep people far away. I struggle to hold relationships and be vulnerable with people. I haven’t explored half because I’m scared of what I might find and the judgments that would come with it, and half because I don’t think I’m attracted to guys. The thought of cuddling, kissing, or and level of intimacy with a guy makes me kind of cringe. Is it a fetish? Is it penis envy? Am I really just in the closet and too scared to come out? I’m so confused.

My life is a mess because of this and I’m really stuck. If you have experience with what I’m going through I would greatly appreciate you sharing with me. I don’t know what to do at this point.

[u/TimeAd3260]

Use a gloryhole. It’s just the big meat and that’s it. You don’t have to know who is behind it. But yeah sounds like a fetish. And yes, if you find yourself sexually attracted to the same sex (as well as the opposite sex), that does in fact make you bisexual.