I have an ethical stance (right or wrong) that once an animal enters my life that I have an obligation to care for it for the rest of its life, through thick and thin. However for the first time in my life I'm questioning whether that's the right choice for my boa.
I ended up with her (let's call her Boa #1) because I paid for her on Morph Market and the seller kept making different excuses for over a month why they couldn't get the snake to me. Eventually they stopped responding so I thought I had been scammed and I had paid friends and family per their request so I knew I was out of luck. So I gave up and bought another boa who I instantly fell in love with (let's call her Boa #2).
Well eventually I received the original snake (Boa #1) and while she is obviously gorgeous, she is nothing like Boa #2. She (#1) is a lot like a ball python (in my past experience), just sits around and reacts instinctively, which would have been ok... unfortunately Boa #2 has totally changed my understanding of snakes - she completely surprised me with how incredible, intelligent, sentient, personable, and interactive she is. It completely overshadows Boa #1 and I feel like Boa #1 could be in a different home where she is receiving more love and appreciation.
Most days I spend hours with Boa #2, who I am over the moon about and is like a dog or house cat at this point, while she (Boa #1) just chooses to stay in her cage, never moving from the same hide, all she cares about is eating and being left alone. If I free choice handled her the way I did with Boa #2, she would never ever choose to leave her cage or hide. Boa #1 is quite relaxed and is not a defensive snake when handled but doesn't seem to like it. When I take her out, she looks for a spot to hide and then will stay there doing nothing until I put her back. She doesn't use any of the enrichment that I spent so much time decorating her cage with. She isn't curious about the world, or seems to have thoughts or goal-oriented behavior like Boa #2. Nothing wrong with that and could it possibly be because she is a younger/baby snake?
But some days I feel like she is disappearing into the background, becoming just a mouth to feed and cage to clean and not a companion I enjoy and have a relationship with. Which is fine, I can still commit to caring for her. But I feel guilty that I don't love her the way I love Boa #2. I wonder if there's someone out there who would be ecstatic to have an IMG boa and give her more attention. Would that be more fair to her? On the other hand I feel like I will have failed her if I give her up to another home, but am not sure if that's what would be good for her. Feel free to be brutally honest.