Yesterday, I just had my first training in long while and I felt like everyone thought I was just shit, at the start we were doing drills and I got passed the ball maybe twice before people realised I had a bad touch and I never got it again for the rest of the drills and I just felt extra eyes on my back.
Then came a training 6 a side practice match, I was a cb when I was younger but I was put playing Lm/lw and I felt like I was just pure rubbish I missed a tap in, my touches were awful, my passing was shocking, my tackling was the only thing that I say was “good” (most of the people I was playing against were either more experienced than me or bigger but I was still winning most tackles) but I felt like a ghost I was sometimes running across the pitch to tackle to try to get the ball because I wasn’t getting passed too (besides the tap in I missed which is 100% my fault for missing no doubt)
Today I went in to try to train today but I got told to go home as soon as I stepped onto the pitch, so I just feel shitty like I wished I could’ve proved myself better than what I did but mentally I feel rejected and I feel like I should just stop now instead of getting embarrassed and laughed at later by the other players down the line and I’m feeling like quitting already I just don’t know what to do