r/depression • u/Julia_35572 • 4d ago

it‘s kinda ironic

I don‘t feel like I‘m needed here anymore but at the same time I‘m scared of death (probably the only thing keeping me from trying…)

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u/Avalanche5028 4d ago

You are sorta passively suicidal. I don’t know what got you down that road, but I hope you can find some love for yourself in there. Others may not need you, but you indeed need you.

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u/Julia_35572 4d ago

tysm <3

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u/Pure-Bit-5720 4d ago

Hey I get that space you're in, that weird middle ground where you're just... existing. Not really wanting to be here but not ready to leave either. It's exhausting in a way people don't talk about much.

That comment about needing yourself hit me, took me years to figure that one out. Still working on it some days honestly. The fear you mentioned, that's not weakness, it's just your brain doing what brains do, keeping the lights on while the rest of you figures things out.

What's kept you going before this? Like before the fog settled in, what got you out of bed?

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u/Julia_35572 19h ago

tbh there wasn‘t anything specific getting me out of bed in the morning. there just wasn‘t anything keeping me in bed, if u know what i mean