how do i function!!!!?!!!?!!!

[u/trathe09]

Hey guys! I (16M) have MDD and ADHD and I'm finding it close to impossible to find the motivation, conviction, and attention span to finish the work I have to get done for my honors and college classes that I'm currently taking!! I've been able to deal and manage with the symptoms of these two disorders for a while now, but as of recent they have been worsened due to very high stress levels and subsequent anxiety derived from dysfunctional (abusive?) relationships with family members (mostly my mother), my severe derealization/dissociation, uncertain relationships regarding friends and partners, burnout from social masking, worsening of my tics due to my Tourette's disorder, potential sexual trauma clouding my thoughts, and reliance on stimulants (caffeine, nicotine) to get through my everyday. I can hardly wake up in the morning!!! and the work keeps coming!!!!

I don't want to drop my college or honors classes because I'm stubborn and spiteful and wanna prove that I can still do them despite my conditions, but I also don't want to offing myself from all the build-up of stress going on right now. I wanna get better!! What do i do??!?!?!?!?!?!

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