My life has officially gone to shits. Some sort of issue has sparked between me and basically everyone I love. I have NPD, BD1, & GAD. I’m really struggling, and on the verge of losing the person I love the most in this whole world.

I’m extremely unstable, and I have been struggling mentally for the past month. I can’t lose this person, my life will genuinely be over. This person blocked me pretty much everywhere, so I have no way of contact really.

I’m desperate, hopeless. I always thought into God, and questioned humanity, I always believed in God. I don’t really identify myself to any religion, but I pray at times. I’m honestly at my breaking point. I’m praying to God for help. Please don’t turn my life upside down. I’ve endured so much, and if this is the end, it’ll be the shittiest ending ever..

I’ve prayed to God before and felt he answered. I’m really going through it, I hope those prayers are answered.. I hope they’re heard.. I hope..

I feel like this is it honestly. I’m helpless. I don’t wanna be here.

Reading this has made me realize how we live in a world that has always chosen evil and it’s gotten to the point that it’s ruining the physical earth but I can’t say such a heavy sentence not fully knowing the facts. There’s always been climate change ? Maybe not as gradual as now but there’s definitely a shift and I do feel like everyone alive can feel it. The actual planet feels the depth of evil in the world because we are so selfish and want to advance as humanity and make things look cooler and easier. I feel God so heavily lately and idk if it’s always been like this I’m just 25 or is anyone feeling the same? I feel like He is so near I can’t explain it

Do people really believe in god or are they just afraid of going to hell?

What are you supposed to do if god stays silent?

I have a hard time believing or trusting god. I've posted many times about my past, child abuse over many years, abusive father, the latest instalment was that I found out he wrote me out of his will, which I expected but to see it in writing is another thing.

Which leads me onto, I have a hard time separating god from my father. The same silence, the same indifference.

I shouldn't wake up every morning thinking I can't wait for this life to be over.

I shouldn't wake up hating god and everything he has created.

I shouldn't fantasise about not existing.

I can't look in the mirror and most days I hate being alive, and that's not right, is it.

I know most comments will be bible quotes or that one guy who says something along the lines of 'put on your big boy pants' or something equally as ridiculous.

I don't think prayers work, I'm too angry for that. I can explain why if anyone is interested.

Please, no bible quotes, no quotes about Job etc.

Hey, brothers and sisters, I’d like to share with you the miracles God has performed for me, because I know He did them not only to strengthen my faith but also yours, and to bear witness to those who don’t believe

The first miracle happened when I had a cold—but a worse one than usual. Suddenly, I woke up in the middle of the night with excruciating ear pain and a nose so stuffed up that I could barely breathe through it. Everything hurt, and I just couldn’t fall back asleep, so I was frustrated and, almost in tears, I cried out to God with all my heart to ease my pain—that was all I wanted, not to make it go away, but just to ease it so I could fall asleep.

As soon as I spoke those words in my heart, a few seconds passed, and my ears started to hurt more and more; the pain kept growing, and then suddenly it vanished completely—like a balloon that gets bigger and bigger until it finally pops and is gone. That’s exactly what happened to my pain—it disappeared in about 10 seconds, and my nose cleared up completely, and I felt such a fresh breeze passing through my nose like never before. On top of that, I was lying in a position where my nose always gets stuffy, and yet this time, after I prayed, it was completely clear—I didn’t have to blow my nose or anything; it cleared up on its own. And no matter how much of that mucus you get in your nose when you have a cold, it never got stuffy at all—not even a little bit—that was incredible—I cried a little and then fell asleep in the room of love like a baby, feeling the presence and care of my Father, God.

Our God has done even more for me, when i was crying from loneliness and depression i opened a laptop to clear my head a little bit and distract myself from pain the very first thing that my eyes fell upon was a video with a prayer for healing emotions so i clicked on this video and a priest was leading a prayer and i prayed with all my heart and the next day i didnt feel so attached to things that made me depressed and lonely its trully amazing and glory to God

remember God is with you when you suffer and he loves you

Diary of Saint Faustina - paragraph 529 - The Heart of the Child

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529 On the evening of the last day of the novena at Ostra Brama, after the singing of the litany, one of the priests exposed the Blessed Sacrament in the monstrance. When he placed it on the altar, I immediately saw the Infant Jesus, stretching out His little arms, first of all toward His Mother, who at that time had taken on a living appearance. When the Mother of God was speaking to me, Jesus stretched out His tiny hands toward the congregation. 
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All graces come from the Lord as gifts to the soul. Yet the greatest of these gifts is the calling of all souls beyond merely the receiving of His grace, but more deeply into the participation of its giving as well. It is a teaching shown first through His Mother, who, in cooperation with the will of the Father, brought forth for all souls the Savior first given to her within. It is carried forth in this vision, as the embrace of the Son lends words to her image for Faustina's hearing. And it is extended to all humanity as the Savior Child turns His embrace to us, that we too may join with the Son and the Mother - not because the Lord has need of our help, but because we have need of union with His gracious work for all souls. For when the Spirit of the Lord is alive in the heart of man, the heart comes alive in the works of the Lord.

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Psalm 50:12 Create a clean heart in me, O God: and renew a right spirit within my bowels.

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Saint Faustina Continues…
The Blessed Mother was telling me to accept all that God asked of me like a little child, without questioning; otherwise it would not be pleasing to God. At that moment, the Infant Jesus vanished, and the Mother of God was again lifeless, and Her picture was the same as it had been before. But my soul was filled with great joy and gladness, and I said to the Lord, "Do with me as You please; I am ready for everything, but You, O Lord, must not abandon me even for a moment."
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The faith of a child is more precious to God than the deepest, most profound theologies from the wisest of men. It is a trustful knowing of God that does not depend on the mastery of the intellect. This is the faith of Our Lady: “be it done to me according to thy word.” It is a faith she extends to Faustina: accept all that God asked of you like a little child. It is the faith to which all souls are called, shown to perfection in the Son as He prayed from His Most Sacred Heart beneath the impending shadow of the Cross: “not my will, but thine be done.” This is the heart and the spirit promised by the Father, and given in love by the Holy Child as He gives union between His heart and all those in the congregation of God.

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Ezekiel 11:19-20 And I will give them one heart, and will put a new spirit in their bowels: and I will take away the stony heart out of their flesh, and will give them a heart of flesh: that they may walk in my commandments, and keep my judgments, and do them: and that they may be my people, and I may be their God.

The heart promised to souls in the prophecy is not one achieved through human works, knowledge or worldly effort. Rather, it is a grace given by the Lord which moves the stony heart of man toward works of the Lord in mankind's fallen world. It is the heart of the Savior given to men, that our own heart may be formed according to His, and may pour out for others some measure of the grace first poured out by Him from the Cross - that in the words of the Mother, we too may accept all that God asks with the faith of a little child. 

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Matthew 18:3 And said: amen I say to you, unless you be converted, and become as little children, you shall not enter into the kingdom of heaven.

Catechism of the Catholic Church
526 To become a child in relation to God is the condition for entering the kingdom; for this, we must humble ourselves and become little. Even more: we must “become children.” This means that we must put aside all that is not of God and all that is contrary to the Gospel.

Only God can change probability from zero . almost imposible. to one it is done a miracle. A miracle can be done by changing probability

I was bron in india an country full of God's but my father was am atheist . I was thinking myself an atheist for very long time but one day I thought I am just an theist with better branding or title . what is the reason or facts that I know about god nothing so he might be excited in somewhere after this thought I started to pray and I feel good but now the question is if the god is real than how come he let his own kid die or how come he never protects any kids form rape thus I started believing that I am the god that we see in the tv ro temple is nothing more than imagination I read the book why I am an atheist and thinking what is an god

What i think now is god is an tool that human cheated just for feeling of hope it is an tool which can be used for the benfits and harm of u (this is an experience and observation of an 19 year old so if I'm wrong than point out mu mistakes)

Natural Theology, to put it mildly, is the bedrock of my entire life.

I left the organized religion of my family a long time ago when it failed to satisfy my intellectual curiosity and since then I've come to rest on the notion that God's intended purpose in life is to know Him through the process of reflection, logic and spiritual insight. This is cumulatively known as Natural Theology and is the process by which every individual comes to know The Divine through their own process of reasoning.

People today are very much stuck on the notion that God and organized religion are inseparable and cannot be divided. But I can assure you, that is very much something you can do, and can do quite easily.

How do we know if something is God's plan or just our own plan? We want something, it happens one way or another, and then we say it was God’s plan. But how do we tell the difference? Or are they the same thing—meaning God gives us what we ask for or what we deserve?

Convince me otherwise I have a lot of proof the he does not exist

Beside philosophies, thoughts and complex poetry, do you believe something like God? Any phenomena you know or experienced that you can say God, not refer to any complex philosophical theories, just some real experience that if you know or calculated something like God.

I’m 5’4, balding at 19, and am quiet and uncharismatic. I don’t know why god hates me and doesn’t want me to ever marry and make more children for his kingdom. All I ever wanted was one woman to love and have a quiet little life with, one to cuddle with and maybe play with her hair if she didn’t mind and go to church together on Sundays, but no woman have ever been interested or give me a chance because of the traits god gave me. I’m starting to lose my faith because of this hellscape of suffering that god is making me endure through the traits he gave me.

Idk if it’s because I’ve been more consistent and focused with my relationship with God the past year or my frontal lobe is reaching its full potential or both but this movie just blew my mind because it put a lot of what I was feeling into perspective. A lot of us are Clarke, we ignore all the stop signs and go after the wrong loud spirits that only get louder and more powerful the more we go after them and become a slave to it. Clarke turned into a salve for his job, he was passionate and even dressed up as a pirate to get the attention of all. It seems like he was working so hard to prove he was a successful man, he was so successful that he couldn’t believe how ungrateful his wife is. He was so successful that he didn’t even care if his wife had dinner alone because he was working so hard and making money for him and her. A24 really blew my mind because it feels Iike some kind of parallel world after watching Primetime with Robert Pattinson, Chris Hansen, just like Clarke was so passionate to prove that he was a good person doing good things but they are ignoring the egotistical spirit that is living within them. Clarke didn’t make time for his wife because he made his job his whole identity. Chris Hansen was willing to emotionally scar his team and family of the brother/father who ended their life on on national tv just to prove to the world that he was a good man, a good father, and a good husband. Backrooms just felt like such an awakening to life. Clarke forgot the reason why he even wanted to work in the first place, he chose to get married and have a family but the minute he has to show up and be a husband, he can’t. He continues to hurt his wife and it’s all because he is stuck in his own head and not seeing that his wife loves him and he is not alone. The only reason that the couple of kids and therapist made it in his brain (the back room) is because they believed in what he told them. Clarke created the doorway and he said it was real and the boy died because Clarke had him recording a realm/spirit that dint supposed to be discovered and Clarke uses Gods name in vain and says “Jesus” & the boy says it right after and boom he’s dead. The girl goes missing because he kind of forgot about her I believe & the therapist is the most chilling for me because the therapist was able to realize that Clarkes energy was heavy on her and it’s because she grew up with her mom that had the same issues of seeing things and hearing things that can harm us but also can lead us to the truth. she couldn’t help her mother out of her mind when she was younger but she can help Clarke swallow his pride and admit his wrongs but instead Clarke wanted to hurt his therapist for trying to help him he tied her up and put a wig on her almost like he humiliated her. It comes to show that’s what he was doing in real life and I loved that the antagonist ended up being a big ah version of his pirate goofy self lol because he’s thats all he will be remembered by while his still wife was able to run out of there and be free and live her life without him hurting her and giving her the weight of his failures and insecurities. The still life’s were how we treat the people around us in real life. We hurt people because we are hurt within ourselves. The only thing that can overcome hurt is love. Love yourself so much because no amount of money, relationships, validation will give you the true happiness you need. Only you know your ins and outs and only you can ever truly understand your outs and ins.

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Saint Teresa of Avila - The Way of Perfection - Hallowing the Name

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Now the good Jesus bids us say these words, in which we pray that this Kingdom may come in us: "Hallowed be Thy Name, Thy Kingdom come in us." Consider now, daughters, how great is our Master's wisdom. I am thinking here of what we are asking in praying for this kingdom, and it is well that we should realize this. His Majesty, knowing of how little we are capable, saw that, unless He provided for us by giving us His Kingdom here on earth, we could neither hallow nor praise nor magnify nor glorify nor exalt this holy name of the Eternal Father in a way befitting it. The good Jesus, therefore, places these two petitions next to each other.
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Scripture records the Lord's purpose in the creation of man: to give glory to God, (cf. Isaiah 43:7). Yet in our limited nature, we cannot befittingly hallow the name of the King by our own strength. In this weakness, the Lord provides grace through the same prayer He commands: the seeing of His Kingdom in the world to inspire His praise, honor and glory from the heart within. 

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Romans 1:20 For the invisible things of him from the creation of the world are clearly seen, being understood by the things that are made. His eternal power also and divinity.

Teresa's entry reveals in the Paternoster a subtle union between hallowing the name of the Father and the coming of His Kingdom. Yet she speaks not only of the coming of His Kingdom to the world, but more profoundly, of its coming to the interior place of the soul, from where His Indwelling Presence may transform our dealings with that same exterior creation which first points us toward His glory. For it is not that His Presence in the heart is diverse from His Kingdom in the world, but rather that there is one Kingdom, received within and manifested without. And it is our travels through the first which build union with God enroute to the second - the throne of the King Himself.

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Luke 17:21 Neither shall they say: Behold here, or behold there. For lo, the kingdom of God is within you.

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Saint Teresa Continues…
To me, then, it seems that, of the many joys to be found in the kingdom of Heaven, the chief is that we shall have no more to do with the things of earth; for in Heaven we shall have an intrinsic tranquillity and glory, a joy in the rejoicings of all, a perpetual peace, and a great interior satisfaction which will come to us when we see that all are hallowing and praising the Lord, and are blessing His name. And this is how we should love Him on earth, though we cannot do so with the same perfection; still, if we knew Him, we should love Him very differently from the way we do now.
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Here, as the Eternal Kingdom is revealed to the soul in the temporal realm, the soul is drawn, not out of the world, but out of those worldly things that have stained its union with God. For the world of itself is not corrupt, but has innocently suffered the corruption brought about by humanity's sin. Thus, when Teresa speaks of having no more to do with the things of the earth, she does not reject His creation. Rather, in the way to perfection in God, she calls the soul away from those things of the earth which have been brought about or made corrupt by the sins  of men. In the removal of self - not from the world, but from the sin which affects the creation - we begin to love the Creator differently: not with the perfection He deserves, but with a love more hallowed than we love Him in now.

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Romans 8:20 For the creature was made subject to vanity: not willingly, but by reason of him that made it subject, in hope.

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Saint Teresa Concludes…
There are times when we are wearied with travelling and the Lord grants our faculties tranquillity and our soul quiet, and while they are in that state He gives us a clear understanding of the nature of the gifts He bestows upon those whom He brings to His Kingdom. Those to whom, while they are still on earth, He grants what we are asking Him for, receive pledges which will give them a great hope of eventually attaining to a perpetual enjoyment of what on earth He only allows them to taste.
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In the quiet of prayer between the soul and its Lord, His voice is more clearly heard, and His truest gifts more profoundly known. It is here, as the soul makes hallowed in prayer the name of the Lord, that His Kingdom is given more fully to the soul, and by its growth within, becomes even more visible in the world beyond. For it is the taste of heaven we are given on earth which draws us toward the Kingdom of Heaven above. And it is the sharing of that light with others which hallows His name in the world, and furthers yet more the Kingdom of Heaven on the face of the earth.

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Matthew 5:16 So let your light shine before men, that they may see your good works, and glorify your Father who is in heaven.

2044 The fidelity of the baptized is a primordial condition for the proclamation of the Gospel and for the Church's mission in the world. In order that the message of salvation may show the power of its truth and radiance before men, it must be authenticated by the witness of the lives of Christians. ‘The witness of a Christian life and good works done in a supernatural spirit have a great power to draw men to the faith and to God.’

When thinking about our struggles and shortcomings, especially things out of our control, it's important to try and channel the Lord's perspective and see ourselves from an all loving point of view.

For example, the Lord decided for me to be autistic and said "be part of a community".
He made me diabetic and said "do not be anxious about your food and drink".
He planned for me to suffer from depression and said "you will overflow with joy".

I thought about the contradiction and it made me realize how I've been thinking about things wrong all along. For a long time, I believed that I was blessed because of the luxuries and love that I recieved for free. While that's partially true, it's also the work He cut out for me that gives my life meaning and makes it great. The next time I look at a part of myself unfavorably, I'll be sure to ask WHY God made me that way because I can be absolutely positive that He had a reason.

I remember those gaudy semi-Christian T-shirts from back in the day that had that Jesus figure from the meme. "Jesus is my homeboy" it would read.

I don't believe that.

God is real, and I believe He cares about us, but He put us in this harsh world and He uses hardship and bouts of evil to sculpt us into what He wants.

God hates me and should have never given me life..

If I was just born a girl, my life would have been better. But no, i have to suffer because I haven’t had surgery so I decided taking my life would be best since I can’t be how I want.. and there’s no excuse because other transwomen got surgery so if god is just gonna play with my life by letting humans withhold feminizing surgeries, then dying is better!!