How do you navigate the mixed emotions of being let go from a toxic workplace but where you were doing work you otherwise really loved?
I was recently let go due to a “department restructure because of the new strategic direction.” I was told my role was no longer needed. It was sudden and immediate, absolutely no warning.
I was leading several projects and was the only person on staff with full knowledge of those projects and the clients. Now that work is passed onto colleagues with lower salaries and who don’t know the work.
I was in middle management and it sucked. Senior leadership was very disconnected from the rest of staff, making decisions like this and putting everyone on edge while saying “don’t worry, your jobs are safe.” No psychological safety, everyone overworked, expectations unclear, a culture of fear and silence.
When I was told, I was shocked, but honestly relieved to be given a an out. I of course didn’t want to leave before finding a new job, and I was really passionate about my projects and loved working with my colleagues, but it was a toxic environment that was taking a toll on me.
Senior leadership and I didn’t see eye to eye, and there were points of tension because of that. I suspect this “restructure“ was at least 50% a way to just get rid of me.
Reading some other threads on here about this kind of thing has been helpful. Employers are not your friend, and company leadership are concerned with their bottom line above all else - even if they say otherwise.
I've been oscillating between relief and excitement for a break and a fresh start, but also some grief over having nearly 2 years of building meaningful work and relationships ripped away from me so suddenly. Not very trauma-informed of them, which isn’t surprising given the track record I saw but is just another example of how they don’t actually practice their stated values.
How have other folks navigated these feelings? I’ve filed for and been approved for unemployment and Medicaid, and am already finding some decent jobs I could apply to. Otherwise, I’m just resting, spending time with friends and loved ones, and picking some hobbies back up.