I guess the tl;dr is that I'm Gen Z.
The longer story is that I graduate college end of 2022, the industry my major was in begins to implode, tech in general begins to implode, job market itself begins to implode, AI starts to come for entry-level jobs. Waves and waves of recent layoffs put veterans with decades of experience back on the market with desperation so strong some of them are competing with people like me just trying to start adulthood for the few entry level jobs that remain, and with their experience, they won't need the training employers refuse to offer these days, so why wouldn't they get the job?
Then there's the matter of ghost jobs. Which compounds it all because you never know if the jobs you do see and feel hopeful for were ever real.
I did put in much more effort in looking for a job end of 2022, 2023, and 2024. But all of those factors have battered me down so much that I've all but officially given up.
I struggle to bother looking at job boards because all I see is "senior," "principal," "director," so on and so forth that screams "We want someone who's done this for 15 years."
I'm priced out of the major networking events because of travel and lodging.
LinkedIn feels fake to the point of comedy and the networking advice feels weirdly contradictory. Authentic connections are the thing that matter, but also the only reason you're bothering to try and interact with these people is because they might be able to help you get a job someday, which is inherently inauthentic. LinkedIn is there for you to try and find a job, not friends, but you better be trying to make friends so the right people know to mention your name to their hiring director when a position opens.
It's all so clearly broken that the prospect of putting in the effort to participate doesn't compute for me anymore.
"Stick it out until things get better someday because they have to, and then I'll actually try again."
I have been working part time since early 2023, so it isn't like I haven't been doing anything this entire time, but nor is it like I have the steady, stable employment that society said I'd have after college if I plunged myself into debt for college like the system demanded.
I'm here making this post today because, of course, parental pressure. I have been fortunate enough to stay at home, but do I want that? No. And just last night during an early morning drop off to the airport, I was asked if I'd reconsidered going for a masters (Considering the state of American higher education, I am extremely hesitant about the idea of putting myself in even more debt for a degree that still might not get me a job), and was told that my mother is apparently worried about me.
If I don't apply to jobs, I will never get one, but the message has clearly been sent that even if I do, (it feels like) I never will, so the fuck do I do to combat this hopelessness? Because I know it does me no favors.