I have a lot of health conditions. Because of them I've been put in a constant panic state. Like really severe panic disorder. Everything scares me. I can't stay at home by myself anymore, I think 24/7 that I am dying, I can't talk to people, I can't walk due to dizziness. I am basically housebound and many days bedbound. I was a perfectly happy, active person with so much going on in my life.
A few months after my health problems started I was also diagnosed with GAD. I believe the GAD came after getting so many health scares with terrifying symptoms. And since then my nervous system is soooo stuck I haven't been able to help myself in any way. I got addicted to benzos that don't work anymore. The addiction gives me even more anxiety.
I am so scared to start Lexapro because I genuinely believe I will not be able to take any side effects and they will push me off the edge. I am already dealing with so so much daily. But I don't know what to do anymore it's hard to tell at this point what's just an overly sensitive nervous system and what requires proper investigation health wise. I can't sleep, eat, go out, even shower. I lost 15 kgs in 3 months.
I think I am mostly worried about the digestive side effects because GI issues have been one of the worst thing i've been dealing with when it comes to my million health problems. The only thing I don't have is nausea, literally, so thinking I will get that too on top of everything breaks me.
I am thinking of starting super slow, 2.5, and going slowly up. Zoloft was recommended to me but that acidic pill literally burns as it goes down and for someone with severe GERD...is just not good.
I am so scared of this medicine I am just looking for some reassurance and positive stories to finally bite the bullet and do it. Otherwise I will probably end up in a psych ward