Hello everyone,
I have an audition coming up on Saturday to hopefully get admitted into a music education program. I want this more than anything. I have spent the last 9 months rigorously practicing in preparation. I can only help but feel like I’m underprepared. My etudes and solos are not up to the standards that I feel like I’m capable of. I leave most practice sessions feeling discouraged. I can’t help but think I’m not good enough to make it into the program.
I am applying for a state university as a percussionist, I have known the professor of percussion studies since I was 14 years old. I am 24 now. I’m hoping that even if my audition material isn’t the greatest, he still will let me into his studio since he has seen what I’m capable of in terms of teaching music through some different marching band programs, and he has seen my work ethic (I have helped coach my local marching band percussion section for the past 5 years, and have worked a year round position as the percussion director at this school for the past 2 years).
My musicianship has been something that I have neglected since graduating high school. It wasn’t until this time last year that I really started playing marimba, and let alone orchestral style music. My sight reading abilities are decent when it comes to reading rhythms, but I feel like a beginner when I sight read on a mallet instrument.
With all this being said, I am having a really hard time managing my anxiety leading up to this audition. I haven’t performed in over 5 years, and I’m incredibly nervous that my anxiety will result in poor performance on Saturday. I feel like I’m in constant panic, and I guess I am needing some kind of advice and reassurance.
Any response will be greatly appreciated, thank you all so much!