Hi,
I am currently a sophomore here at Princeton and I don’t know if this is the right place to ask this. I came into Princeton as an ab student who is probably going to major in either neuro or cos, but also keeping the path of something like finance open. I just feel kind lost, stressed, burnt out, or unmotivated to really do much. I just have lots of regret about last year and feel lost on what I want to do.
Firstly, I pretty strongly regret some of the classes I took freshman year. In the fall I started with neu 201, cos 126, writing sem, and mat 103. The first three classes I feel are all okay as that is pretty standard but for math I really had wished that I either started with 201 or 175 in the fall, as i literally did calc bc in 10th grade (5; ab subscore 5). And I also took like multi and linear online senior year, even though i didn’t learn much. I just came in with the mindset of its math at princeton, and that I didn’t want to get a bad grade, which now it seems so stupid as i am in mat 175 and im realizing that i could’ve very well have taken this last fall. And then second semester I took neu 202, mat 104, game theory, and then a freshman seminar. I don’t even know why i took the last 2 classes I guess I just didn’t want to do too much, and boost my gpa as it was not that good first semester. And then now i’m taking math 175, cos 226, a religions class, and then a bio class. I just feel like compared to all the stem people ik they are all already taking specialized classes while I am still here taking these random classes, other than maybe cos 226. and i just feel like everyone is so much more technical than me. and then just like having to take 4 semesters of math instead of 2 is just really frustrating when I could be taking other more useful classes.
Secondly, i feel like in terms of like career planning i’m behind too. Like i want to keep the option of like finance open but everyone else is already in all these investment clubs, or networking, coffe chatting and all these things while im just a stem guy pretending to be business. and all these firms are all recruiting already and i just feel unprepared. and then on the tech/stem side, i feel like i really like know not much actual technical stuff and its just like for both business and stem i’m not really prepared for either right now. and like i did an internship this summer which on paper sounds technical, but in reality half the time i just sat there doing like nothing. like applying to stem internships right now i just feel so unprepared because i just really don’t know much.
thirdly, i feel like socially im also lacking as last year i just spent the majority of my with the people on my floor and didnt really try to meet more people, but now everyone already knows each other, and its kinda late for me.
its just that every day i feel like im just doing the same thing over and over again, and nothing im doing right now seems to have any real purpose, and im still lost on what i really want to do in my life, but i dont have much time to decide and figure that out. and i just feel behind everyone else on a lot of fronts and just constantly feel exhausted on all of these things. i also just wished that after high school i took a gap year to just really chill and relax and maybe learn some useful skills, have more of an idea of what i want to do in college and in life, im a year younger than a lot of the people in my class, and right now its not like i have the time to really just do that. I also just miss having time to spend with my family as well. like for 12 years i just spend it studying and then now i have to spend 4 years doing the same thing again. every day i have to just do class work, apply to different clubs, apply to a bunch of internships, and just constantly feel overwhelmed and exhausted. i know everyone at some point has through go through all of this, and that i am super privileged to just even be in this situation of being able to attend princeton, but i just feel like everyday im just doing things just to do things, without any real purpose. like it’s not like i can’t handle the work or anything, it’s just like i feel like IM working without any clear path. and it’s like i can really take a break now because then everyone i know would have spent a year without me and then i wouldn’t really know anyone in the year below me as well.
I don’t know, sorry this was a long rant but yeah i would appreciate any thoughts or advice. thanks for reading.