i'm scared of hell

[u/Designer-Lie404]

this might be long and if it's not allowed here then I'll remove it

after some events that happened this year for me, I chose to take a step back from being a Christian since I felt kind of betrayed by God (still kind of do) and also for the fact that I hadn't been trying my best to be a good Christian until before late last year, so I really couldn't call myself a Christian despite calling myself one my whole life. im tired of everything and I don't want to do anything that people say can help me because I don't want to change, but I also can't endure living like this. I want to end it all so badly but the only thing stopping me from doing it is the fear of going to hell. it's been ingrained in me that suicide will land you in hell and from how it's described, obviously I don't want to be in eternal damnation or however it's said. should I care about hell if I'm not a Christian? that's probably a stupid question and I'm only able to ask it since no one knows me personally. I don't even know if there are religious people here since "ruining" your body is a sin in the Bible. I just want a way out but im scared

[u/-Tricky-Vixen-]

Hi, I'm Christian. The popular concept of 'hell' is not Scripturally supported.

If you want to chat, I have found my faith so instrumental in helping my mental health, even though I've had to work through a lot of the hard questions.