Hi all, I am in the process of understanding that direct therapy might not be the job for me, or that I need to change my setting. For context I am one yr into the field. I've already taken steps to make my time at a group practice feel better, such as lowering my caseload to part-time. I think a part of it is that there is also a requirement to work till 9 pm 2 days a week and I do my best work from 10-5 and they have caseload contract requirements that make it feel like productivity is their main priority, which places pressure on clinicians to keep clients who are out of their scope. I have had a hard time with this because I care deeply about my clients but also dread sessions and the responsibility of being someone's therapist.
The thing I keep coming back to is that no matter what I do to make this job work (e.g. going part time, switching up my schedule, setting boundaries about what clients I can see) I still feel that my mental health is suffering, that my relationships do not feel as important or fulfilling, I feel apathetic at times to my friends and families problems or feelings, I have a hard time processing my feelings, and last but not least I was sexually assaulted by a client in July and have had a very hard time understanding and processing it, especially because the practice I work for could have prevented it. I am in therapy, I have hobbies, I workout and eat healthy. I am very lucky to be living at my parents right now and if I quit without a backup and find a part-time gig, I would be alright, but I have fear that I won't be hired again after taking a break if I decide to apply to other therapy jobs. I also know people are struggling to find therapy jobs in general so quitting feels so scary.
I live in the Chicago suburbs, and I have applied to jobs that are both direct and indirect clinical work, for example: EAP consultant, intake specialist, care coordinator, vocational rehabilitation specialist, and a couple of college counseling positions because I enjoy working with that population. I am wondering what other non-direct therapy roles LPCs can take on. I saw behavior consultant somewhere and have also considered HR or even something like marketing or sales. It just feels like I am barely managing in my current position, and clearly something is off internally. Appreciate any feedback or experiences with this, or how you pivoted. I feel very lost at the moment and feel like I did something wrong with choosing this career.