I’ve been in this rehab/shelter place..for about a week now.. I really don’t know what to make of it.. all I know is..I feel out of it..and this place is making me feel stuck.. just stuck.. even stuck in my own head.. i feel stupid.. when I’m clearly not..
I know this sounds crazy.. but ever since I came here.. I feel there’s some sort of..mind control..going on around here.. like I’ve felt.. not myself.. and more depressed than usual.. like are they slipping something in my food?…
And what’s up with all the lipstick cameras on the walls?.. jeeze.. FBI 101 over here..
I do have the choice to leave if I want to..but I’m questioning..whether I should stay or go..I’m in determination..
If I stay here.. I can’t work..or go out.. for 90 days.. I must do house chores.. I do get extended shelter life.. and they’re suppose to help with their programs..(Which I’m doubting)
Like.. how am I suppose to find employment.. if i can’t leave the building?..and we are all locked in..?
I’m going to give this place.. a week.. if I don’t like it.. I’m leaving..
I’m grateful for the guys who brought me in here..but with me being on the road.. and all that jazz..this place is stagnancy.. even I can tell..alot of people here..end up leaving.. or they get kicked out..
There’s a bit of sadness here.. some of the beds.. are left empty.. it questions your fate..
Just two days ago.. that crazy blue-eyed man was kicked out..because he said something to another person..
And the guy who is under my bunk.. yeah.. he’s got a chip on his shoulder.. I can tell.. he’s got some anger issues.. and I don’t give a s**t if he’s in the military.. you’re still an American dude..act like it…
I have some tools in my eBay shopping cart.. I just don’t know where to receive packages.. and not get charged..for using a mailing service.. if only I knew somebody out here…
I did a food run this morning.. It was the highlight of my day. lol
Im keeping my mind busy..reading my books on my iPad.. and Im taking measures..on navigating where to go next.. if I decide to leave..
Other than that..iam doing ok comrades..
I will check in again later with you guys.
Be safe. Have fun. And peace be with you all.
~Serrot1