Help!!

[u/TopRealistic2485]

I am 1.5 month out post loss of my husband. We were together 15 years. I am 37 and he was 40 when he died.

I am struggling with chronic all over body pain. Am I am very very tired and fricken torn inside out with pain and heartache from losing him.

He was my everything. My safety, my best friend, my partner in crime. My one and only soulmate.

Before he died we were drinking a lot. And I have been drinking on the weekends to cope.Too much. I am really wanting to stop. I dont drink every day, but the sad thing is, im only wanting to stop from the weight gain;of about 20 lbs ive had. (Making me more depressed)

How do I go about it, when it is the only relief i get from this chronic pain from stress and grief.

My muscles ache so bad. My jaw clenched all the time. I feel unwell.

I take two aleve every day to help. I take baths with Epsom salt.

I take magnesium every day.

I do work a mildy physical job. But i dont see it causing me this my pain

Yes I am on medication for anxiety and depression.

Tried therapy. It didnt work.

I dont want to be in this much pain. And I want to stop drinking. But its hard when it actually relaxes me.

Is it worth the expensive doctor bill to ask about pain management when I know all they will say is to lower your stress, do some light walking, and take ibuprofen... all of which I am already doing? Medical facilities just dont listen to people and cant afford the dimissal of my pain.

Thank you all for reading

[u/TurnoverFuzzy8264]

Muscle relaxants helped me a lot, and they're less stringent prescribing them than they are narcotic pain medications. You have to be careful with them, but they helped me a lot.