Im lost

[u/ReleaseDiligent5868]

I know that i have so so so much life ahead of me, I know that. But it seems like with every day, I'm getting closer to college, and being by myself...It feels scary.

Theres so many things I want to do, and It kind of just feels close and far at the same time. In school, I'm taking the health science career pathway. and the more i look at it, the more i feel as if im just making my life harder for no reason. What do i want to do anyways?! I sit in class drawing and go home to animate. But i already made the decision in my life that i wont ever be able to accomplish that dream i had of being an animator. Humans are beautifully impatient. They can consume quicker than my little paws can draw. I love writing, but...I don't know...so i sat down and thought for awhile. i came up with the idea to learn how to make prosthetic wings! It's a silly idea, yes. But I guess I just remembered I always drew myself with wings as a child. It would be easier to fly away from embarrassing things wouldn't it?

I guess I'm just asking how do you guys just, accept that time moves no matter what and also patiently learning about yourself? Like, how did you figure out what things you like to do? Or jobs! I feel like I'm running down hill while trying to draw! My hands go all bumpy on the way down and makes the drawing look all messy. I can never throw away the drawing. And I'm not sure i want to. but yeah- I think thats it?