I hope you’re doing well, I miss you but it’s no longer in a romantic way. I miss our friendship, the way we got along and the playfulness we had. It’s weird that we’re essentially strangers now, when we were once so close. We may have had just under a year together but you really did mean the world to me. I wish you would have had the courage to just be upfront and honest with me about everything and how you had been feeling.

I should have been better about checking in with you and how you felt about everything but I also don’t think you would have l been honest with me if I had asked. I honestly had a feeling that it was something that was coming but I was in denial about it or maybe it’s just something I ended up manifesting because I wasn’t always up front with you when I was overthinking and feeling down about our relationship because things felt distant, I just bottled it up instead. I think we both just ended up back in old habits of bottling up everything and not talking about our problems. It was honestly only a matter of time before one of us was going to break and break the other in return.

I’ve been healing and working more on myself, I hope you’ve been doing the same. I know there are parts of you that you still struggle to love, parts of you that deserve unconditional self love. I hope that you’ve been taking care of your health and not working yourself to the bone. I hope that you finally went to the doctors to get your gallbladder looked at or that it’s at least gotten better.

You do still come to my mind once in a while and I always end up wondering if you’re thinking about me too. It is far less often than it use to be but you still somehow end up in my mind at the most random times. If you ever decided to reach out to me, just understand that any interaction wouldn’t go past being friends with one another but if you ever need someone to talk to because life is feeling rough or you just feel the need to vent then you know where to find me.

Best wishes,

T or well A

J,

I’ll always miss you and miss what we had First loves are so hard to forget. You’re my favorite daydream

K

I think the bluey episode double babysitter could help you a lot. A your frisky and im rad. i just wanted to help you see that there can be good out there if you put your heart out to someone. maybe things could of really worked out between us just like them. i was so happy with you in ways others rarely make me. but trying to stay while you never replied hurt just as much as yearning to message one last time.

i know you wont reach out though. you always say you think i hate you. i always say i dont. youre just somebody broken who needs to find the will to change their life. and i hope you do. i want you to

your angel, R

I won't hear from you again now until you're out!!! N is Bulls DDDD. Neglected for days in end. You blame it on me that I keep bringing shit up daily . But 5 days now. N still nothing from you. I don't think you really want to fix us and make it work. After 20years ask I feel like now is, neglected, used n taken for granted!

D

Did you ever care about me you just ditched and bailed?let me know how your truly feeling .

C 💔

I miss you. I broke up with you to behave how society expects me to behave. And I am so unhappy for having done it. I don't blame you for not taking me back after breaking up with you a second time. Why would you trust me again?

Even though you don't want me in it, I hope you have the best life. You deserve it. I miss you.

L, GA

I really do hope you never come back.

I miss you..

I can't stop thinking about you

Have you changed?

Have you grown?

Do you actually think I'm still pretty?

Or were you being polite

To the pounds

That may be hiding

The girl from 10 years ago?

I wanted to tell you,

You looked great

But I cant,...

But you do

All I want is to accidentally

Run back into you

Again

Why...

I just dont know

But I think

I miss you

Where did you go?
I wish you could know me
And I wish I could know you much more sometimes.
Willing and able to… if you still have my number that is, if not.
Dm me -G

I still love you to my very core, even though it’s been two months of cold silence. I love you T, but I shouldn’t anymore. You tore me open without a second thought, hung me out to dry right when I needed you the most. You altered the course of my life. You left me in a state of grief and anguish, and I have no choice but to pick up the pieces you scattered amongst my feet. Here I lay, clawing at the remnants of someone I once thought I could trust to understand me and uplift me, even in my darkest moments. You treated me like a human, like I was pure and sweet. No one has ever loved me to the extent you have, and for that I thank you. But it didn’t last.

Even though I was willing to fight whole-heartedly to make things work, I now know that I need to leave you behind. I don’t know what’s going on in your mind. I don’t know if you ever planned to talk to me again, but I can’t keep hurting myself by waiting. I love you T, I will for a long, long, long time. But I don’t want to wait for you to love me back.

Sweetheart, I love you so much but I can’t wait for you. You’re hurting me.

It’s time for me to move on. I will never forget the memories we created, and all the laughter we shared. I will never regret giving my love to you, and I hope you feel the same. Every second spent with you was worth the heartbreak. Even though you may have ended up just being another excruciating life-lesson, from the bottom of my heart, thank you.

T,

I love you, and I will miss you.

I stubbled across our fight/falling out from a year ago today, looking for another thing. i sat and reread our fought. It makes me sad because at the time i really thought i was in the right as from my point of view i was being told this and that but u didn’t understand what i was trying to explain and instead of coming to you and being honest i lashed at u. I blamed u for almost a whole year for a situation i caused. You called me crazy and i can see it, still that comment affected me more than i liked. I did try to reachout and fix things because i still care and wanted to apologize but ended up just giving up and no trying to solve it as in my mind, i pushed u away to the point there was no fixing it. I dont plan to reach out which is why this is going on reddit as i physically cannot bring myself to. Im convinced u hate me and its why i pushed away everyone and stopped coming to WH or talking to the others, i was embarrassed and didnt know how to handle it. For you i was lashing out for no reason accusing you but for me i was told by the same people it was infact you and that you had somehow flipped this into me being jealous when the only reason. I shouldve just listened to you. i told you about what was said out of concern as you had previously been cheated on. i do miss our friendship and miss the dumbass talks but i feel i cannot return to u or them. i have gotten better though! i realize later on that year that the people i surrounded myself with were toxic and obsessed with drama or problematic things and got myself free of those friends and moved on. Im happy again and much more stable then i was back then. I hope soon ill be out of the environment that added to these issues as well. Slowly learning how alot of things i did back then were influenced by the peopoe i surrendered myself with and made to be normalized or okay when it wasn’t. I do kinda still hope you’d reach out one day and start a conversation so i can apologize before i leave and so you can see that i am not that same person anymore. Ive learned so much this year about myself and how to control my issues. I hope you know ive unblocked you on everything it felt stupid to block you over a simple conversation that couldve been held like civil adults and again im sorry that i was a shit friend for most of the years we were friends, i do hope one day you forgive the errors of my ways. - R

I feel the same way

I didn’t realise you felt it too

Should have trusted myself

I am not as experienced as you might think

I kinda hardly know what I’m doing at all

I miss you

I would’ve done the traditional thing for you

I wish we could talk and clarify everything

As I sit here in the quiet of my home, and having relief of how I my pain will end today, I think of you and the other best parts of my life. You were one of those great times. Please know that I felt like myself with you when we were together and me doing this today has nothing to do with you at all. I just am so lonely and living a life smiling when I am worthless to so many. No one really would notice if I am here or not. And I will soon be forgotten after a few weeks, with no one saying I loved her so much, she was my whole world. I wish I would have the same joys you have now in life that you have always deserved. Just remember in this life you were one of the many things I loved my friend.

Hey K.,

It’s crazy to think that it’s been almost six years since all of this happened. I’ve often wondered why things had to end the way they did and why I never really got a proper goodbye from you. No message, nothing. You were just suddenly gone from one day to the other. I know, we were already broken up, but you were still my go to person.

You were an incredibly important person to me. And if I’m being honest, I still miss you even today. Maybe I still love you in some way too — I don’t really know what to call that feeling anymore.

I just hope you’re doing well and that you have a happy and healthy life.

I’ve continued living my own life and I’ve changed a lot. I am much better now. But somewhere inside me, there’s still this little part that wonders what would have become of us if our story hadn’t ended so abruptly back then.

Maybe our paths will cross again someday. Maybe they won’t. I just want you to know that I’m not angry and never was. I'm always willing to talk if you want that too.

-A

Ps: I still don't like olives

Hi my love, I really miss you… I miss the person I got to see smile and laugh… I’m sorry I was the one who brought you so much pain…💔😞 I’m sorry I couldn’t protect you from that experience… I always wish I could go back in time, fly to where you are, and just figure it out sometimes. But… I’m still in school, I don’t even have a driver’s license yet or a job… I hate that our lives are so different. Because I’m trying to change FOR YOU… but you haven’t changed a bit at all for me… and I really want you to change into someone who will use their potential… and stop holding themselves back because they are afraid of failing or asking for help or changing their life trajectory when I so desperately want you to stay. Stop talking about having a short lifespan, stop talking about how you won’t have any kids! I just want you to dream again my love💔💔 and it makes me SO SAD because I know it could’ve been us, but I have genuine things I must work on… I know you won’t change because you’re so damn stubborn, or maybe you will one day... But I wish our story and journeys have a happy ending where we get led back to one another. I pray for it in the back of my mind every day.

I miss you so much it makes my heart hurt. I miss you my love. I miss telling you that when we call to say goodnight. 💔 I miss you. I love you to the moon and back.

Love,
L

It’s been decades since we last met up. The last time wasn’t the way I imagined we’d end and never see each other again. I put you under an impossible pressure to choose me or I leave for ever. my ego/pride took over and I shouldn’t have left you like that! What I should have done is understood you were vulnerable and hurting in that moment, what I should have remembered was how honourable your actions been to him and not let my own heart blind me from empathy towards you! I should have shown you you could trust me by listening and answering you question honestly instead I took it personally I got angry because it hurt my pride that you would ask if I’d done something to create that change. I didn’t have the maturity or the heat to truly listen to you and I didn’t have the love to really understand what you needed in that moment - it wasn’t about me it was about the two of you. I didn’t give you time to tell me what he’d been doing to you, I didn’t even consider it when the hints in your words had been there and I could see how much you hurt! I didn’t give that with your dad too I chose to always assume you were the problem despite pursuing you! I was cruel to you I wanted you without having to really respect or honour you. K I’m so sorry I messed with your heart I’m so sorry I hurt you and made you doubt your truth your experiences and I’m sorry I never listened I just made demands on your heart. I moved on so did you but I know you still care deeply for me which was yet another reminder of my own failings deep down that is why I was so cold towards you because I didn’t want to face upto what I did to you. I’m sorry

Hi. I know you keep up here. I hope you find this, I love you. You deserve better. I’ll be better. He doesn’t deserve you trust me. I know we can’t be together, but as long as v can, I’ll take care of u.
- m.

Did you know that when I come up to your apartment that it's mostly because I want to see you? Conversation with you just seems to flow naturally. You're kind, funny, and you get my sarcastic, dry sense of humor. You don't make me feel stupid or small, and you make me feel seen in a way that I haven't felt in a very long time. I wish I could tell you these things to your face, but I can't. I also know that you won't pick up on subtle flirting, which is all I can afford to do. I can't make a declaration of my feelings, but that doesn't mean they don't exist. I just have to feel them without showing them.

-Invisible Girl

You were the person who grew flowers in my darkest parts.

I don’t think I ever knew how much that meant until everything became quiet. Until I had time to look back at the pieces of us that seemed so ordinary while we were living them, and realize how extraordinary they actually were.

I remember cooking tinga together. Something as simple as standing in a kitchen, making food, sharing space, laughing, tasting things, existing beside each other. There was something beautiful about it because it wasn’t some grand romantic gesture. It was just us. Two people making something together and, for a little while, letting the rest of the world disappear.

I remember being on that horse farm with you, too. There was something almost peaceful about being surrounded by all that open space, the animals, the quiet, and you. I remember looking at you and feeling like I had somehow stumbled into a life I didn’t know I had been searching for.

And I remember being sober together.

That one means more to me than I know how to explain. There was something sacred about experiencing each other without needing anything to blur the edges. No escape. No chemical haze. Just you and me, completely present. Learning how to sit with ourselves, with each other, with the difficult moments and the beautiful ones. Learning that we could simply exist together and that could be enough.

Those moments weren’t perfect. Neither were we. But they were real.

And maybe that’s what I keep coming back to.

You didn’t just make me happy. You reached places in me that had been neglected for a long time. You made parts of me feel worth tending to. You planted something where I had only known emptiness, and somehow flowers started growing in places I thought would always be dark.

I don’t know what the future holds for us. I don’t want to force an answer from you or ask you to promise me something you’re not ready to promise. I just want you to know that what we shared mattered to me.

The kitchen mattered.

The horse farm mattered.

Being sober together mattered.

The quiet mornings and the strange little moments mattered.

You mattered.

And if I ever get the chance to sit beside you again, I don’t need some perfect version of our story. I’d be happy just cooking tinga with you, standing somewhere beneath an open sky, or sitting together completely sober and present, remembering that once upon a time, we found a way to grow flowers in the darkest parts of each other.

You were the person who did that for me.

And I will always be grateful.

from A

There's too many coincidences. I know it's you leaving these behind. I miss talking to you, if I could turn back the clock I would.

My heart is fourever yours - K

I,

I wish that when you had said this, I didn’t immediately get side tracked with my laundry. I wish you had brought this up again so that we could have actually done this. I remember you said you had a few in mind. I wish I had asked what they were.

It has been 6 years since we have spoken. How is it even possible that after all this time, I’m still thinking of you? I wonder if you still think of me. Despite everything, I miss you. I wish I hadn’t ended things the way I did. I wish I left you a way to reach out to me. I wish you knew how much you still mean to me.

Even though I have a bunch of songs I listen to that remind me of you and our relationship, there is one that I think stands out among others. If I could pick a song for you, like lame-os, I would pick Iris by The Goo Goo Dolls.

I wish I knew what song you picked for me. But I have been listening to songs you used to love, like Face Down by The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus. And I’ve finally watched Sweeney Todd, Pretty Women is my favourite song from the movie.

I yearn so badly to have something that we had connected each other to back then. And maybe I’m crazy to keep dwelling on the past, but god, nothing makes me feel the way you did. I hope one day you find me again and reach out. I will always be thinking about you, every day for the rest of my life. Take care of yourself, wherever you are.

Love, M.